I'm so sorry for the assault you suffered. You did not deserve to be raped and this is a major violation of your trust and personal safety. In no way was the rape your fault, and you deserve to be believed by your friends and surrounded with support and friendship. I'm so sorry this is not the case. I hope that your family is providing some support and guidance through this difficult recovery period. It makes sense why you sometimes like to be alone to avoid being hurt again. I was assaulted too, and I went through a period of staying at home out of fear. Eventually I joined a support group with other survivors and slowly started making friends and getting out of my apartment more, but this was a process for me, and I'm still in therapy today. I highly recommend a support group if there's one in your area, perhaps at a local women't center.

You've suffered a great loss in so many ways, but we believe you here and please know you are not alone, and that you are worthy of friendship. When the time is right you will make new friends who understand your truth and support you in that.

I wish you all the best, and please take good care of yourself.

I'm am so sorry you are going through this. Just know you are doing everything right and you are not to blame. My freshman year of college I was raped and the guy made up a story and told my friends and I lost all of my friends including my best friend. If they can't be by your side, they don't deserve you as a friend and YOU ARE a better person with out them. Talk with a therapist and join a women's support group. I promise you will get through this. Just take it slow socially and with your healing. Have compassion and love on yourself. Pamper yourself and tell yourself what a kind beautiful soul you are. You are going to come through this and you will be stronger than ever.

No one believes you because you didn't file a police report! By not filing a report and pressing charges you're saying its OK. Your friends are thinking if they were raped it wouldn't be OK but you are saying "I was raped but its Ok" so its not believable.

Every victim of sexual assault has the right to choose whether or not to file charges. Just because a woman doesn't file charges doesn't make the rape ok or any less believable. Going through the legal system can be absolutely harrowing and is a very personal choice. Besides, the OP never mentioned anything about whether or not she filed charges so it doesn't really come into play in this post.

Thank you so much @sonnycamehome & @Perry314 you don't understand how much that means to me. @invisablefriend I actually did file a report and I tried to press charges but the police closed the case but like @sonnycamehome said even if I did not that would not make it any less true youd think it would be easy to press charges on someone who hurt you but I once cared for that person and I have a big heart and it was very hard for me to even take that first because I was holding his life in my hands he could have got 7 to 10 years before he even turned 18 I never went around telling anyone he took it upon his self and tell people and tell them I lied and those people carried it on to every single person who knows me and still does not one decided to listen to my side bc they feel their friend could have never done such a thing.

Stampede. I am so proud of you for taking care of yourself and standing up to this person. You are clearly a strong woman. Keep it up! You are doing great! Feel free to message me if you ever want to talk. I am here. I was incredibly freaked out by the thought of joining a womens support group. But I did do it and it was truly a very healing experience for me to vocalize and share my story with other women and to be a support for them as well. It was a very empowering experience.

invisiblefriend: Please dont read between the lines and make assumption about peoples experiences. Let's accept people where they are at and be compassionate. Everyone deserves to be treated with nonjudgemental compassion including you. Rape is a serious injury to the body, mind, heart and soul; we must tread softly with caring words to lift people up and empower them. I am sure you have good intentions, but read twice, post once. Please.

One last thing invisible friend: I also filed a police report and completed the steps to press charges. The problem: I filed my report with campus police as I was told was the process, I tried with the state police and was redirected back to the ccampus police... I was also going to a school counselor... After doing my part and following through the school counselor accused me of "asking for it" and the department chair of my program asked me to meet with him and yelled that I was not raped about 2 inches from my face. Every year the university completes a report for parents of potential new students to review crime statistics. Want to know the number of rapes that they reported the year I was raped? ZERO. I also did not receive any respect towards confidentiality as every teacher in my program knew what happened. Imagine being 18 and away from home for the first time and completely disregarded and threatened. There is a political agenda and social conditioning when it comes to other peoples response to rape and female oppression and it usually has to do with popularity and money. I chose to take the path of counselors outside of the school system and a lawyer. I took the matter to court and won. I took the road of empowerment. Reports of violence against women in the university and small town setting are squashed on a regular basis to feed greed and preserve reputations of those who have more money. Sadly, this is a regular occurrence. We do have the power to be positive and supporting of one another and to empower other women to not be intimidated.