I've been gone from DS for a while.  Life just kinda happened, new job, working alot and no life.  No life is not unusual anymore.  Its been months now and maybe almost a year that I dont hear from 'friends' anymore. My phone never rings unless its work related while at work.  I mean all the people I had ever kept up with are non existent anymore.  I am even considering getting rid of the social media 'book'.  I feel it is just a way for nosey people to see what you're up to and stalk your profile.  I don't even care about it anymore.  Most of the people on there don't even talk to me in real life, even family.  

Currently, I am having severe stress and anxiety issues, even my chest gets tight and shortness of breath.   My job doesn't feel too promising anymore, the apartment complex i live in is a zoo and management does NOTHING!  The police have been involved to take care of people disturbing the peace.  Stress has taken its toll on me.  I've lost 10+ pounds due to insufficient sleep because of noisy neighbors.  I go the whole workday feeling sluggish and sleepy.  I have applied at another apartment in a small town and tomorrow I should hear from them if my application was accepted.  In the meantime, I feel so alone.  My mother is the only one to talk to and I don't like letting her now how lonely and extremely stressful I feel.  It would worry her to death.  I have convinced myself that this is the way it is going to be for me.  I guess I'm just here to vent.