you are not alone when you are on here *hugs* seriously if you want to talk to someone I would gladly talk to you, Im depressed and alone today too.

thanks, kayitsu

I can stop being selfish about my problems, to exchange horror stories with somebody else, if you want.

Can you turn a negative into a positive? Use all that spare time and independence to work on a project, eg. write a book. You certainly seem to have the intelligence, knowledge and capability from what you post. Or is there something else you could do that means something to you?

I know about irreversible mistakes. I wont go in to mine completely, but we must make the best of whatever life that we have left.

I am a kind person, but I am shy and not a good conversationalist.

"My grave" whatever/whenever it is does not concern me. I have been clinically depressed my whole life and thankfully, my patents didnt fill me with mind/mood altering drugs.

I am in my 30s with VERY few/no friends. I "wasted" my youth in school, and head injuries and 1 criminal offence as an adult restricts EVERYTHING. I was a "perfect" kid, and the son of a policeman.

Please, there is always a bright side. It may be the hardest thing you've ever done, but there is a bright side somewhere.

Please find it. :)

Hey, Penn, I'd rather be alone than irritated! Think about it.

thank you for the nice comments, looney1

but, i'm the cliche of only being able to type a couple sentences on the internet; cant keep my mind together beyond that.

iAmHappyIswear, and koolman,

i guess the bright side is that i'm not a walmart greeter---there certainly is a joke, maybe even a short story, of how people who die and go to hell become walmart greeters.

Yeah, hell WOULD be a perpetual string of customers you have to say "hi, how are you today?" to! Thank God Wal-Mart did away with this position (in my area anyway).

Hey penn I've made soooo many mistakes and wasted so much time and opportunity its not even funny. I tried suicide , dropped out of college twice , im an alcoholic and i basically have no friends.
Ive been depressed most of my life but the sun will rise tomorrow and there moments that i think.."Hey i can turn this around!"

Hang in there and always here.

thanks, OLA1123,

you're almost 30 years younger than me--so there's still time for you to change your life for the best.

If you'd ever like to rant, I have been told I have quite the amazing e-ear. (;

You're not alone. There are many people here facing the things you are - me, in particular, at that. (: -eHugs-

Hi, I know too about irriversable mistakes. i have made more mistakes than i care to admit to. you know i live with my roommate/ex and even though i live with some one i am STILL alone. While my ex chatts up the internet I still feel lonely. I hate that feeling. But I know that here some day my life will change. It is always darkest before the dawn. You know if any one wants to talk or chat my email and or messenger is grizzliesfan2054@yahoo.com I am a good listener and good chatterbox. I am going to be hunting for a website that is free that I can post my LONG LONG LONG life story.. lol. and when I do I will post the link here and others can see who and or what I am and why I am if they like..


Lori

Aphrodusiac,

thanks, but i think others who have been on here for long have heard enough of my rants, and i'm even starting to slowly mellow, as i reach a week without my cat;)

grizzliesfan,

i can "say" all kind of nonsense here, where i dont have to feel...too...ashamed of boring anybody, but i will always have trouble saying how i feel, and talking about my past, in public or one on one.

this site is kinda my crutch, and therapy.

One of my friends is a Walmart greeter. He is disabled, paralyzed from the waist down, in a special chair, has a nice girlfriend, and is a happy person, goes to college. He always makes time to talk to me when I am in Walmart and he's a good person. He's making something of his life without all the excuses.