A couple days ago, I read still another ex-classmate's obituary in the local paper. It's certainly scary to read such stuff, about a # people, in their early 50s, as though 50 something is the typical life expectancy.

Many of these obituaries have friends and family stating what a wonderful person the deceased was, which is probably true, which can add some more scariness to the mix. There's so many articles over the years of how people with lots of friends and family outlive people who are all alone.

I do wonder how much stress was involved in these early deaths from natural causes. One ex-classmate became a chief of police of another town, which is certainly a stressful job. He wound up with pancreatic cancer, with his legs even being amputated to try in vain to save him.

An ex-classmate, in another town, who I hope to call, would tell me how he would throw up sometimes before work, cause his boss kept on pushing him to work faster. Last time I called him he was complaining of neck pain, though I wonder if that's stress related, cause years ago he had to move out of town, when he lost his apt.

Being alone, and alone & poor, can certainly be stressful, and depressing, with enough people ending their own lives or having an early death from it, with some newspaper articles of police looking for next of kin, when the end does come.

But, maybe for some people, myself included, no matter how much they hate being alone, a solitary life is some sort of survival mode, cause they really wouldnt be able to handle the stress of all the family and friends they wish they had.