I recently joined DS as a recommendation from my Aunt. Recently, I lost my Uncle and my fiance' to cancer. My Uncle and I weren't as close as I would have liked. Mostly, that was my fault for not staying in contact with family over the years. I would only see him around Christmas time. I regret it now because he was my favorite Uncle and I lost many years that I could have been able to reach out and been around more. Losing the love of my life is a whole other story. He died is early September. While the initial shock and anger have passed I now suffer from just all around missing him to incredible loneliness. I am 33 years old, I am a single mother, and I have very few people in my life that I consider friends. I don't really go out very often but when I do I have a good time. I feel like I'm stuck in this neverending cycle of repetitive daily mundane activities. Wake up, eat, work, go home, eat, and go to bed. There's absolutely nothing worse than losing someone you love and not having anything to look forward to when you go home at night. I'm definitely not ready for another relationship but it's upsetting that I don't have him. I feel like I'm starting over trying to find my place in this world again. I hate change. I'm a creature of habit but meeting new people is something I'm open to because I need adults to talk to. Thank you for reading my post.