When there is nobody around to help, you should be able to count on yourself. I believe that's the difference for a lot of people in getting control of their own life and continuing to decline, emotionally.

Good nutrition and exercise can change things for the better, and quickly. Getting outside at least for a little while, except in the worst weather. Also, there are supplements that can help.

Nothing helps any problem as much as determination.

Sending good thoughts.

The only time you fail is when you fall down and stay down.
Stephen Richards

I understand the black hole/quicksand feeling. I've often used those exact words to explain how I feel about my depression myself. But don't be afraid of doctors. They are only here to help. Find yourself a good psychiatrist and explain to him your concerns about medication. It may be the only way to help get your mood to a better place. I was the same way. I didn't want nor did I feel like I needed medication to help me be stable. I thought i just needed better control of myself. But I can say without a shadow of a doubt that my psychiatrist is amazing in what he does and the medicine helps tremendously. I don't feel like sunflower fields every single day, but that's okay. I look forward to the good days. I have an awesome therapist who tells me the truth while being empathetic and compassionate to my situation. She has helped me in leaps and bounds as well. Don't give up on getting medical help. I know it's scary. It was for me too. But I had to get to a point where I would either live in the quicksand or try to get out of it. And my therapist is not my first one. Sometimes it takes more than one try with therapy to find the right one. Please don't give up. You deserve to be happy. You deserve everything you desire.

Pine is absolutely right about exercise and eating right. It's amazing how different you will feel when you begin exercising and changing what you eat. And it's also important to have self-compassion. Give the same kindness to yourself as you would to others. Hugs GB

Pine's post is excellant. You can rely on M. Pine's words *always*!

I would add : rest. If one can get good rest that is really important. If a person sleeps just quite poorly OTOH, well the doctor will be very concerned.

best, Caleb

I agree do not give up on medical help as depression is not just that easy to beat without help.....hugs

Thanks everyone, I read it all and am taking it to heart.

I understand what you mean. Maybe you just need someone to talk to, I would be happy to listen.

Although I do use them, I have some trepidation toward MD's and therapists. Some of the meds I get are necessary, some go by the wayside, often a matter of monetary expense. I understand to a considerable degree what you are saying. For me, it is often hard to live up to the lofty expectations of certain professionals. At the same time, I would like you to know that my arm is stretched out if it could help you from the mire of that quicksand I myself have felt. My best to you.