I don't know how old you are but anytime we start telling "stories or untruths" to keep or get a guy it isn't good. If that is what it takes to get and keep him something is terribly wrong. Been there, done that! LET HIM GO, move on with your life. Find your self worth and run with it. NOONE is so invaluable in your life that you have to lie or trick them. There is someone out there who will love you for the real you. I have found living life as an individual will gain all the respect you need from the right people. Good Luck

I really admire your honesty. thank you. I am sure it is not easy for you to share what you did.

I am learning at this age that sometimes it is better to wait it out. Let the steam out so to speak. Until then, learn to love yourself and enjoy life.

People will come and go but your connection with yourself and with something spiritual will always be there.

Give it time.

Hugs.

thank you. I'm 19 years old and i know it's terribly wrong to do this and i don't know how to end the story :/ i don't know how to move on either i tried several time but i couldn't don't know why :(

I would suggest seeing someone for example a counselor who can give you tools to help you move forward.

But I also know that it is really hard to move forward.

By sharing here, I feel like you are doing the best that you can.

If you haven't already done so, tell him what you told us in your initial post...that you are sorry for what you did and how much he means to you. Then, it is up to him to either forgive you or not.

Then, as others have said, let him go and move on. Keep busy. Surround yourself with friends and family. Get out and do things and meet people. Through that, maybe you'll meet someone else and the pain of possibly losing this guy will be something you can truly put in your past,

Well first I think you should probably apologize to him, and then take it from there. After that you should try to be his friend again, and if that doesn't work then just move on and try to find someone else and learn from your past mistakes.

Nyrine. You may love him, or think you love him, but that was a terrible thing to do! If you have to scheme and lie to get your man, it probably is not meant to be. You have to decide who and what kind of person you are going to be in this life. Who would want to be with a liar? And what a terrible thing to lie about when people are actually dying of cancer. That is not the way to get a man and shows poor character. Sometimes you get hurt in this world and sometimes you don't get what you want. But just how low are you willing to go and what kind of person do you want to become? Where do you draw the line? A wise person once told me, you can't want anyting "TOO" much in this world, you need to be careful about that. I'm not sure what "lost him like never" means. If you never lost him? or typo? or means, like never will you get him back? If that is the case you need to let go and move on and really do some soul searching. The jealous behavior you exhibited is serious and not good. Perhaps there is a licensed psychologist you can speak to, that can help you cope with your emotions. Sorry if this sounds harsh, but you are not going down a good path, and it IS serious to understand youself and why you would have gone this route. If he is meant to be yours things have a way of working out on there own. If not, you are still young and there are many guys yet to cross your path. Who knows what and when love will spring up again. :)

thank you guys so much i finally could him the truth and i'm feeling better now :) and now it's all up to him...

well hope things get better for you...hugs bill you did the right thing...two lies just make two wrongs....truth will set you free from bondage of selfishness and selfish actions....