Hello. In reading your message I want to send a hug and extending a caring ear to listen. Life is very sad, I think. It is so full or turmoil and uncertainty. I do not know what weighs heavily on your mind so I don't know what to say except when I am feeling over-whelmed with sadness I like to listen to peaceful music, or take a walk and be with nature. I have a close friend I met at a day therapy program and I will often call her. She understands and she often can make me laugh. Even if it is just for a minute. Just to take a break from my thoughts of sadness. Medication helps but I strongly believe it is not the answer to everything. It helps to balance things, to calm down my racing thoughts. I still am left with the inner-sadness. Another thing I often do to help myself is connect with water. May sound silly but taking a bath/shower, washing my face or hands, listen to the flowing water on youtube if you are not near water. I hope something I have suggested helps. They are some ways I comfort myself. I think that is what is most important. To listen and acknowledge our inner-pain. Denying it just makes it intensify because there is something triggering it and our thoughts often run rapid in our minds. To comfort it slows things down, even if it is just temporary. (It does for me, may not for everyone.)

Please don't worry because you may be worrying for nothing. It is a proven fact that we worry about 99.9% of things that never happen. Maybe this is going to be the best appointment that you have had yet. Sometimes it takes time to get the right combination of drugs or even just the right ONE med. Please let us know how you are doing after your appointment, okay? All the support you need is right here! Hugs Gramybear

I hope things get better for you, soon.

Anger has replaced nearly every emotion I have - don't want to be hypocritical - I still get comfort from inspiring quotes and enjoy sharing them.

Sending you good thoughts.
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"A strong positive mental attitude will create more miracles than any wonder drug." Patricia Neal

I know the feeling that sometimes we just seem to dry up inside, and tears come out any longer. It is so hard to a find a good friend to confide in, so maybe there is a small bit of comfort in knowing you're not alone in that desire. If you ever like to chat, let me know.

I'm so sorry you are hurting. I know how it feels to think you don't have a friend in the world. Except for being around my parents, and an occasional therapy session, I have been very isolated for a long time. I'm too ashamed for others to know what is going on with me. And, my parents do not understand to a certain extent. They have enough going on with their health problems, and I do not want to be a burden. So, I find comfort in being a member of this group. It helps to get my feelings out and to get advice.

You are not alone here. Hoping you feel better soon.

Thank you all. I appreciate all the advice.

Out sides of taking meds to find help, what else do you do? Life skills? Social involvements ( including any volunteering )? Hobbies, interest, goals, so on? I refuse to take meds as I want to stand on my own abilities ( not implying anything bad to you or anyone who does take meds. ) I am a proactive involved personality so I see non-med options. It helps to a degree.

I watch a lot of movies and tv episodes. Plus I love to take hot bubble baths. Sometimes I knit. I also love to play board and card games with my mom.

My goal is to find another office job.