I was married for 20 years to a man who cheated on me with his cousin's wife. He came forward after finding out that she cheated on his cousin with another man and got pregnant. Both my ex and his cousin had vasectomy's. He told me he "thought" she was safe. My ex was and is the only man I have ever had sex with. I can't even tell you how it has affected me. There are days I am empowered knowing I don't have this low life specifies of a human being around me. Then there are other days I ponder, "What was wrong with me?" He always told me that I was the love of his life. I was a SAHM and he hated it. He made good money and had a hard time adjusting to have children. Although I was college educated I gave up a career to give my children a good start in life. He has told me throughtout me staying home with the children that I was a Sap, Freeloader and I didn't deserve anything because I didn't "contribute" to the household. I HAD ABSOLUTELY NO SELF WORTH TO HIM! Anyway, I divorced him! I lived with my parents for a year and slept of the floor so my children could have beds. It has now been 3 years since I have been away from him. I am still trying to heal! I don't know if I wil ever date or have anyone in my life. I have done a moral inventory of myself and I think I am a pretty damn good catch:) All my ex says now is he still loves me, that he was an idiot and this is what I wanted. I just wish I knew why men are dogs!!!!! Thanks for listening!