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Kristian20601
Kristian20601

I has been probably weeks since I posted, and I was reminded that I was not following through last night. That is also a kind of lie. I have felt like things were going well lately and it was easy to let my posting slip. I look at others posts and I haven't been responding to any of those as well. I don't post looking for comments, though they are nice when they happen.

Anyway, things have been strained at home. I had a day earlier this week where I didn't answer my phone on two different occasions on the same day. For the first I missed the repeated calls because I was listening to my radio loudly in my car and the ringer volume was low because I keep it low in the office and forgot to turn it up. So that made it look like I was off doing something I shouldn't have been. Then later that night I was kicking around the house, doing stuff and cooking and set off the smoke detector on the second floor, ran up to deal with that and left my phone up there by mistake. Of course I missed more check in calls and once again looked like I was doing something shady.

Rebuilding trust is hard.

gwilly
gwilly
Yes it is! It's easy when things are going good, to forget the details. And yes it is not a good idea to forget the details. I've done it many times. Then you have to start over again, building the relationship back up and continuing to work on the details of your plan to fix the lying. I've come up with new plans and am trying to not do it anymore to get where I want to be. Hang in there.
lyinglucy
lyinglucy
I've been much like you - haven't checked in for a while because things have been good on the honesty front although emotionally life has been up and down for a while. It's good to 'touch in' every now and then though, and logging in today two posts caught my eye - the first was yours and the second from someone who was in a similar position to the one I was in when I joined last year. Trust IS hard to rebuild. My marriage was almost totally broken this time last year, and it has been much longer than that since it started to fall apart. However, with complete honesty and transparency we have come a long way in the last months, although we still have a long way to go. Consciously deciding to be truthful will lead to not even having to think about it - you will feel better and although there will be moments when you feel awful because you're not trusted yet, it always feels better when you know you are being honest. Lying to someone else means you are lying to yourself first of all, and that is such a basic betrayal.