In 1975 Leo Sayer made a song whose lyrics have haunted me all my life: "You see I'm lost/ I don't know who I am". Seems like all my life I've been what everybody else made me and expected me to be. I realize many many years later how much I loved, needed, and hated the 2 most important and cruelest peoiple in my life: my parents. my mother and my father. Years later, all I can say is: "Bitch, I survived anyway and lived to tell the tale. One of the best things in my here and now is the FABULOUS RU PAUL'S DRAG RACE and UNTUCKED. i I've said most of my life I wasn't a Lesbian. In my day, things were blocked out in total black and white. All I really want is a place to be ALL of myself.