.. I can't believe how long it's been since we first " regrouped" here...
( when Big dog, the Boss (Deb), and Mathew ( Matt .. my SYLFAR..:-) ..
Were keeping the wheels on this thing themselves...

We sure did have some great laughs in our last house at the end of the road here.
.. and some hard truths shared.

I miss you guys.
One and all.
This little group saved my ass.
I won't ever forget that.

Love you.
I hope you're each and all somehow finding some measure of ease, comfort, peace..
Whatever it is you need.

As always..hugs
jc

I miss you too JC. And everyone.
I'm in sporadic contact with our Bigdog (crawling on and fighting the good fight) and also with Tonna every now and then.

Just to share a bit of news of me for anyone who still swings by, I successfully propelled myself through a whole year of daily poetry. My next step for that is working out how to get that year published in an honest to god book... A copy of which will be sent out to anyone in our group who might like one. Free of charge because I couldn't have done it without you.

Thinking of you all and sending you all the love in my heart.
Bex

What happens when I miss a week or two.

A really good conversation.

JC I still go back and read history of our family. The town, pool hall, kids and their antics. During that time I had it all pictured in my head. Never could wrap my mind around Wanda.

The last house at the end of the road......yes hard truths. We shared and held on. Decorated the hole, didn't we ?

Bex I would love your poetry. Anything you write is magic.

love and miss my friends
hippy

Hippyshake!!
I knew you'd get by here and reply to this eventually :-) :-)
Yep.. we sure did decorate the hole!
.. somehow brought light into our deepest darkest places.
.. not to mention glitter. :-)

Bex.. I'd love a copy of your writings.

Hmm..
Wonder if anyone else will wander through?

Luvsnhugs
jc

Well, I think that fish I ate and am having a cigar now ! Thank You JC
OK there is a place in my heart for Ol' Wicked Wanda !
I have been away too long from the last house at the end of the road.
The "One" that brought me back to sanity, I really needed a friend and a boat load of your courage and inspiration.
I really owe you so much!

Thank you!

JC SEXY as ever! It has been a long time, And I am an Ass!

The very people that brought me back to life I abandon....
Selfish is the reason...
I was feeling better and better, But some or most of you were not doing better, some worse...
But I was weak... When I would come on find some of you doing worse with pain and symptoms, it hurt me to think I was doing better and there was nothing I could do or say to make things better for you.
But the biggest reason .... I did not want to relive the pain and suffering I had gone through....
I have been silent over a year or so now...... How does one apologize for such a dastardly deed ??

I am ashamed of myself

Bex
Good for you. I hope you publish .... Just let me know where i can purchase you poetry as I would love to read more of your amazing mind.

Hippy You sure did!! Your style and grace painted the walls with love and courage bringing a special light to our den of discontent.

JC you are the beacon of light guiding weary ships to safe harbor It is an honor to know you.

Steva one of my happy memories of you in our home and lives were the pictures of your hay bales and your tractor and pickup. You got sick and you didn't come to us. We are here good and bad. Family is for in sickness and health.

Sure good to see you and don't be a standee.

hippy

Happy Valentines Day!!!! okay a little late But the flowers I bought you are still fresh TEE HEE

Humbly enjoyed array of emotions, depicted ....

Hey, Bud..
I'm not gonna let you entirely off the hook.
I will admit..
It saddens and worries me when someone for whom I've come to truly care for..
Just disappears.
.. without having any way of knowing..
Are you OK? Are you happy?

..As you've returned with answers.. you are forgiven :-)
(I'm sure the kids will forgive you, too..
If you put some money on their books.
.. they were tried as adult last time, ya know.

LOVE ya
Hugs
jc

:)

HEY! his fuckin thing is freezin up so bad it's makin me crazy. i been on here a half hour just gettin to our home. i was gonna come on here and do a thing on .... i dunno...a loveyou ramble. but it's about to freeze me clear out.
. i do miss youguys ....as our Bex would say "a fuckton" but i can't stay at this fucker long enuff to say anything properly. i'm puttin up my email again in case any of you see this and wanna visit







































































hey. been on here near an hour to get here to our home and say this much. this site has been degrading on my own gear for months. i have to open a new tab for every single thing. i can't manage that. my email works tho. if anyone wants to visit with me ....that would be fuckinawesome. i miss you bad. i can't get to messages or hugs. dunno what'sd goin on. i will email youguys who's address i got. i miss youguys....i mention that?
i am writin this as if it is really workin. it aint comin up on my screen except about thirty characters behind. so..if this gets on...i'm grateful. fuckit...mightyaswell give it a shot. i'm already typin....maybe it will come through. shit has been weird here...but not by the standards of this finest group of toughass peole i ever known. i don't wanna come on here and whine (well...i do but...aint gonna) :)
i just............MISS YOU
i know we all been busy bein rtun over ...i'm sure sorry for all the crap you guys endure. and i am blessed in sharing what life with each other we are able. i've done lots of things in my life. before i went on the crawl i was busy boy. got to do much i am forever grateful for. sound. strong. goin like gangbusters and havin a ball. BUT.........and i blow no smoke.... when i sprawl in the wee&lonlies...and reminice with myself about " the good times"...what is always at top...is this..right here. even far away as we are. even undependable as this comms is. even not knowing if this will even post....it's top of my day. because as i do this....i am thinkin of you. truly...again i say it...the toughest, most compassionate...most inspiring ...most...allgoodthings...group of folks i have ever been honored to mingle with.
i used to stop by this infernal machine on my nightycrawls and get HERE. sometimes just to be in here and "listen" to yopu guys. my friends. my ....well, i know of no other thing as great as true friend.......so i wont go on a list here. even tho we aint here so much. even tho this fucker may not post....leanin here and writin these words...in this most special of places....................is special to me beyond mere words. i FEEL this place that is you.
even like this...it is balm to my soul.
whatever happens or don't...i tell you with no smoke...you, this...is and will ALWAYSBE...a place of Peace. one of very very few in my life. most of that nonPeace is, has been...my own fault. and the Peace i DO get here.......is none of my doins. it's a gift...for which i am grateful . alrighty...hands goin down so i'm out. for now. i hope i haver actually been here. i been thinkin on you guys real hard .......i really want you to know how much you mean to me. life actually. lots of folks say "you saved my life" we say it here too. but ....here..it's literal.
i have sat here with the means to step clear out of the coporeal. with the growing intention to go that way too......more than once. but...i did not....and that has been your doins. i'm grateful. i hope you all are doin...good as you can. you remain in my always prayers.....in my mind...and in my heart....down to the bones of my soul.
iloveyou.
Peace.............................t

if you just got the first one of these.....please ignore that and scroll down. i gave up on the first one so it don't make no sense. and since i know you guys are used to sharp, exact thinkin and precise and flawless writin from me.......i don't want to tarnish my shinyass image by puttin up somethin...youknow........fuckinOdd and like that. so....i want you to know my loveletter to you incase i can't get my machine to get here again. .
hugs n smooches and for you JC..........GIANT SLOBBERS OF LUUUUUUUV.
ok. ...this fucker's about to drop me so........if you ever....any one of you get feelin down on you. PLEASE REMEMBER...how much you mean to at least one skinny little hillbilly in north US.
iloveyou........Truth.
Peace........................t

Making it home.....love those words. We are home here. Absent oftent but I believe still home.

I prefer to think of you as slobbering Big dog T. Not skinny little hillbilly in north U.S?

Giving the email info to Bex cause I can.Never want to loose touch.

love,and peace
hippy

Wow sorry I just typed a bout a half hour and it disappeared Well DS same as the old Ds I guess.

Good to see you are still able to type BigDog and Indeed Sir you are still as sharp as my best Axe. Clear as the water in the back stream , Crystal
Sorry I haven't been here for you ....... There is no excuse I could conjure up worthy of mercy ...One just can't let his friends down as i did.

I lack the sight to see your email address perhaps you could message me the numerals or letters to reach your email sir.


Hippyone your dancing AVI is so sweet !! She is dancing in tune to
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ASXriqyKQlk " Ray LaMontagne" "In my own way" on youtube relaxing tune that some times reflexs my feelings

My heart is SO relieved to be with you guys.