Cool...... I'm a calling time-out too.....
Simulated whistle blow......
Basement Pardee...... 8-)

Sorry things aren't letting up Sweetness..... love n sparkles....

Well..at least I'm in great company with you guys..:-) :-)

Eewe..the basement? Umm..I think I can get a note from my Dr saying I need not be in such a toxic environment at this time.
How about a backyard party?

Sweetness....sigh.:-)

Wahoooo.... Backyard Pardee.....
Steva just cut the grass n baled it..... 8-) n the Zombie poo is all gone.....

Better bring Wanda outside too, to get a Tan..... she's looking rather pale n flat.....

N it's not toxic, the purple people eater just has gas..... eeeeuuuugh......

Wanda uses fake tan..she can't tolerate the sun well.

You putting some shrimp on the barB, Seekret?

Do you know what's so cool....... I have just got my first n very own BBQ...... Wahooo...
Goto assemble it this weekend....... hmmmmm that could be interesting..... 8-)

So Shrimp's are ON.....

Hmmm... That might explain why Wanda's mouth is always open,..... to much sun..... ???

:-) :-) :-) .yeh..I'm sure that's it, Seek...:-) :-) :-)

laughing......seek ya gotta clean Wanda up. sounds like on a sunny day we need that barB shrimp and steva's freshly baled crop. gives you some time to get your very own BBQ together. photo expected when done.

jc i wish some of the ouchie fixed today. missin my buds here very much.

Thinking of you JC......
So hope today's procedures went well..... flippers crossed n tied in bows for relief.....
Please take it easy, n hope Dude is there for comfort.....
Love, Sparkles, n, Gentle Cuddles xoxoxox

Huge Hugs Hippy.... 8-), magic Lady..... xo

I say what my " twin" says again! Positive super powered thoughts for you Jan!

Let me know when the Barbie is on! I need to plan my energy, you know!

A Party is needed indeed! Xxxxxx

Seek? Has flippers? Where? Jan where are you my wonderfully wild and wicked friend? How are you feeling?
I'm not speaking to Wanda.....she was last seen in my best undies and matching bra! Bitch!

Otherwise.....I love you all hugely, I really and truly do!
Deb

I'm present and unaccounted for..:-) :-) :-)

What I want..no ..need...to know...
Is...who the Hell put them on Wanda?
That's who I'd be worried about Deb.

We do need to re-group here, don't we, buds?

Luv n hugs..

Yes we do!

I feel like I'm a science project ........ Hope after hope being let down. Time I just took extra meds and just accepted the confines of this "life ". Everything works for a while. I did get that break you speak of Jan. It was absolutely wonderful. But now the burning and aching is back......I'm a bit better, but a taste of no pain and being conscious and so happy, then slowly slipping backwards. I don't know anymore. Everyone looks at me with loving eyes of hope that this time the treatment will be the " one ". God knows I do too, but I keep my mind in check. It's the devastation on the faces of loved ones when they see the pattern of me trying to deal with the emerging pain cycle......

I'm calmer in my acceptance this time. But I am feeling like being alone more and more. I'm preferring it.

That is different again......usually when I can plan or manage I look forward to company.

The pain flare that got me to the point of the week of ketimine was insane. The break in pain probably saved my sanity you know? But now back on the break through meds, trying to be me for my loving family. Fuck, it's so fucking hard. X

Shoes..when you can't hold your end of the rope any more..just tie it around you..
( no..not your neck)
And we will hold on for you.
Love and hugs..jc

Shoes.....I just balled my freakin' eye balled out. I JUST had that wonderful week....that amazing week of happiness, laughter, way less pain. I thought I had found a miracle by weening off the anti-depressants. I felt like the me I loved to be. Going on short outings with family. Watching TV, or movies together. Just enjoying time with my girls....enjoying time with my mom. I was just starting to think maybe I was going into a remission.

I never over did it.....didn't push it. Then the pain started up.....just a bit, so I stepped back on the light activity. Then more, more, more pain rushing back today. Now, this evening I was still deny, deny, denying that the pain was back. Till I realized I was kidding myself to ever think I was 'better'! 'Fuck, it's so hard is right' I totally and 100% understand how your feeling tonight. So, let's just cling to each other tonight and tomorrow, and the next day.....as long as necessary, OK?

So Jan do you think you can hold onto that rope for both of us?

Love to all,
Deb