ugggg, i'm really late, but how are you now?

this sounds like such a cluster-f for you. i can't wait until there's a place that you really can find comfortable.

Shoes I know you are in and must be in recovery mode. Nothing comes easy but I do hope step #2 is going in right direction for you. So proud of you dear one.

Hi, yep. In recovery mode from step two alright! My patience is being tested. This part of the trial isn't as good as the first part so far, but still program ajustments to be made.

Hippy, we had our Blue Moon! Amazing!

Yep, Yolkie .....good description ha ha!

Seriously frustrated, it is Father's Day here tomorrow, I'm not up to doing much but we will at least do take away ......I'm not up to going anywhere. I know I only have until next Wednesday so that makes me feel like something is within reach. It is in Capital City again, not looking forward to the drive.....another three nights in hospital. Regardless of what I choose to do. I think I've hit a "low" in trying to be positive, but I have to remember the first part of the trial was good!! The fact I can't get comfortable is doing my head in. I have that many pillows and things supporting each position I try. I put my neck brace on and that has helped.....

Enough! Love you all HOPE YOU ALLAre doing OK xxxxxxxxx

I still believe in the deepest recesses of my heart that things will end up being better for you in the end. I think it's because you deserve nothing else. I'm thinking of you everyday. Sending up prayers for the peace, pain relief and the comfort that you seek.

Much love Lisa and those truly wonderful healing hugs!
Deb

Hi Friends, well I'm a bit of a mess emotionally.

This Wednesday I go in to hospital for the implant of the Nevro. I had my MRI last week.....the Dr who did it came to me after he had finished and asked how I could possibly have walked to the MRI machine after what he had just seen during the MRI.......I answered that with pain meds, about fifteen paces is do able....

My GP phoned me after she got the MRI report and wished me well for the implant proceedure, she checked I had her mobile ph no. In case I needed to talk.....you know, I'm lucky I have such caring Doctors. I know I can't be fixed, but with pain management, try to find more energy to be me.

That is my ask at the end of this. That I will have better PM and I will be a more consistent "me"....

This room has been quiet lately, I'm not good at getting threads started, but I hope you will all come here in the next few weeks. I find it hard to ask for support. But even today, my Day did a flip that has me horizontal not being able to go out of the house as I wanted to......I need you guys. I'm scared of Wednesdy but I know I have to get there .....one hour at a time.....

I'm grateful I can walk a little, so grateful. I feel bad for feeling down when I'm on the threshold of some thing that will help me. ....it's being away from home and in a hospital in our Capital City...a whole lot of things.

I'm worried about my DD. Please understand I'm not trying for a pity party....I'm just scared and sick and tired of being sick and tired and I want my DD to be well so much ......I feel so inadequate. Let me be me dear God, please let me be me. I miss me xx

Lisa we will stand in with you..

The anxiety of any surgery is usually tugging at us. I don't know about you but I don't like planned trips to the hospital. Have only had one. Any other was an emergency and I didn't have time to think about it.I wish we could all go and just be there with you. Since we can't we are just going to have to surround your room with our spirits and prayers.

I want to give the MRI guy a kick in the seat of his britches. Saying something like that to you even if it was meant to validate your pain...........well he just shouldn't. You are strong and this will be good.
It worked well in the trial and it will work permenantly also.

Throwing rope and positive thoughts your way.

I'm here honey.....even when I'm not here, you're in my thoughts and prayers always. Though, I do understand how wonderful it is to pop in here and see current activity cause you know friends are close:-). That is nice!

I'm getting a bit tired now but I really wanted to remind you that you're not alone! I love you!

Deb

Thanks guys, I need it. Hippy, I thought the same thing....but then I questioned myself ....am I too sensitive? But, I did think it inappropriate ........the funny thing is there was one nurse to get me into the MRI and three plus the offer of a wheel chair in getting out!
You are so right, when there is no time to think, it's the better way to go! Deb, thanks, my leader is always here, but you have not had a good run of late. I don't want to burden you.
I promise to meditate on the presence of everyone's spirit being with me.. That is a good strategy ..... Everyone at home is back to there faces of hope and expectation. I hope I don't let them down. Xx

Had planned to go out today, but couldn't. Feel bad about that....but not even with meds could I fake it once the pudental nerve kicked in.....so down for the count ...xx