Im new to this group so my comments are in the peanut gallery still. I just wish there were more people on here at night I could talk to. It gets kinda lonely in here! I can sometimes hear the echo of my own voice!! lol

Gentle hugs,
Jenna

Know what ya mean. know what ya mean........

Yeah but the wrong person can multiply their effect and ruin a good thing.

hhmmmm.........let me think on it......

When I was invited, it was the intimacy of a small group that attracted me.

xoxo

sorry bout what?

busy is not always good
if another person accuses me of something that I simply have not done i am leaving for good

i hate the big board because no one gives a crap about anything expect proving they are right.

it still hurts that the nasties had to carry on their argument until ds took away my thread
i dont start that many and every time i do some person who later reveals they are pediatric accuses me of trying to steal from someone else

Whoooah...Sunnyb....start some new thread........
I think the big board has gotten a lot 'nicer......there's always gonna be something.

I get that we want to keep this an 'intimate room.........how about old members and letting them know it's active again? I did that with a couple...but don't know them, so it's a little weird.

Big dog....reference to a time you said you knew a post was mine 'cause I always said sorry when asking a question.

Sunnyb....we could care less about being right here :-) :-) :-) :-) :-)

Hugs...jc

well good onya then jc.
APOLOGIZEFORNOTHING!!!!!
well....unless your mean to me.
loveya.
PEACE.............t

T....it's so nice to have you around.
Luv ya....jc..

Yep, I know that! Here I feel safe sharing what hurts and what helps. Sadly, on the big board that is no longer true.

I am really really tired. I have been in so much pain for a very long time.
I honesly don't know what to say to people who have been in pain for a couple months to a year about what the heck to do with pain. I am so used to being in pain that I get pneumonia, eardrum burst, broken bones, multiple broken ribs all without paying any attention to the pain.
That was BEFORE pain management.
Each time hubby had to literally threaten to call an ambulance before I agreed to go the ER to get X-rays to see if I needed help. With the exception of the broken ribs where they do nothing now, they gave me temp help and a number for another doctor to call in the morning. Still I had to wait days to get treatment.

Several decades of that and you either choose to just stop living or learn to ignore the pain. How does one explain that to someone who is barely a year into a life of pain?
If they can still stoop to an argument about who said what, when, where, how, why, then they have no idea how I feel and can't possibly understand what I try to say about pain.

Sorry, the winter is the worst time for people to be mean. Yet, at the same time, I realize they are hurting and just need to be angry at someone safe. But why is it always me that gets the brunt of their anger?

Because you speak your truth......

Sunnyb....I cannot comprehend the depth of your suffering. I cannot imagine decades of it. Your strength is beyond me....that you still come here and try to help those so early in this arduos journey.I'm so sorry, so very sorry, that this has been your lot.
With all my heart, Sunnyb...hugs.....jc..

I am new here too but I love the smaller groups, it is more personal that way. I understand where Jenna is coming from, I am often a night owl myself when I can't sleep because of pain. I spend alot of time crusing the internet highway or writing depending on my mood. It always feels more like home here than in the big rooms and I can be myself without fear of judgement. Maybe we could add a link for a special chatroom just for this group, where we could all talk to each other? What do you think? I have seen it in other rooms, where it is linked that way.

Angel

Sunny.i know what you mean about adressing (no matter how i try i can NEVER spell that dag word!!!).people who are basically just startin on this road.i have'nt been on it as long as you have but i have had a couplea decades pretty much shot to hell........how can you be positive saying basically"yep.nevergonnaendforya"
that's just too tricky for me sometimes.
Jc..........i was the first or second member when this group first started.under a different name.but it was this group.
it took off like a brushfire.Deb was here.Yolky....some others.
i don't remember exactly how tall we got here (Deb would know) but i think we were up in the 80's
then it petered..there was some high drama that led to the demise of the original group
but we were salvaged by Deb mostly and Matty.....and this group became well.this group.
then it petered...............i slid through here every now and then.folks with more effort to em (Deb, Matt....)
were still yammerin away in here.Matty had to leave awhile......i've had to leave awhile.
Yolky's left time to time.......now here are all of you fantastic "new bloods"..this, to my eye, started when Yoly breezed through with an "i miss this place " post.
i remember me and Deb and Matty b.s'n around a bit in the echoey space here.then.........shit...just nothin.
i remember invitin some of you louder mou......uh brighter spirits in here and it went wild...you all know the dynamics since you yourself have been here.ebbs and flows.
my point is(i think.and i aint even gonna look to be sure cause i can't stand to edit:).....this here
when tytybaby first started up i told her i was excited to be a part of the start of this group and looked forward greatly to being part of it's growth and evolution....hadn't really thought about it till you brought this up Jc....but "the growth and evolution".of this group ha sbeen.well unique, special, slow, fast, brittle, elastic.........................stable, erratic.................perfect.
i'm not stumpin for anything..one way or another..just sayin..whatever comes or don't from this whole discussion.will be part of the growth and evolution to which i looked forward.......and actually called right for a change..i have really enjoyed it....still am.....and i really don't think anything we do or don't(invite ore people.keep our heads down.whatever)......short of declare war and invade another board(shot me down first time i suggested that)......will do much overall.
this place has a gestalt that kinda takes care of itself in the overall....not barring the goodhearted and greasty elbowed work put in by all the admins.
anyhow................THAT hurt bad(typin).....gonna quit now.if any of it makes sense.cool....if it don't well....tough.
i love this place
i love you guys.
there's my bit...carry-on
PEACE
...................t

i do love this room and it is nice it's only the size of the special ed bus. i think numbers will grow here as more wonderful people are added.

I like Angels idea of the special chat room . it maybe a lot of work we can ask our new admin queen Tonna about the chat room she put one on for Christmas and Thanksgiving. She can let us know how much work it is and what is involved.