I'll give you an honest hug...

JC I respect your courage and your honesty. I also feel the desperation for some quality of life at all costs.

I don't know what meds you take or any other regimes, but if medical marijuana could help you with pain and depression and digestive problems I urge you to try it. There several different strains for different conditions if you like there are some sites to help guide you to what may help you.

Screw the damn laws prohibiting it's use it's only Pharma friendly so they can make a profit.

I love Hon and only wish the best for you my friend.

Many hugs and hopes for you
Steve

I respect your decision. I have not walked in your moccasins. And of course you can come here and offer your help, love, comfort, and yes, opinions, to other members. You are gem to me.

I am with you 100%. I have a deal with God. I get cancer - it is his message that it is time to come on home to heaven.

I know it is a hard decision to make. You have the right to have peace and actually live life.

Take care friend. Praying for peace and pain free days ahead.
Sunny

Actually, I think people like you looking at these decisions have a great deal of wisdom to offer to the rest of us. You did NOT get to this point with great ease. It took a massive amount of struggle to get to where you are right now.

Plus, each of us may face this decision at some point with the meds that we take. It is good to have examples to follow if you are willing to continue to share from personal experience I believe that we can learn so very much from you right NOW and for as long as you choose to share with us.

Lastly, I will be keeping you in my prayers. I would dearly love to know how you are doing when you feel like sharing.
I just lost a close friend and don't want to lose another right now. If you think you can share, please contine.

There is great peace in waking up to being able to come and greet a good friend each day!!!!!!
You are precious to me!
Love
Sunny

...I'm not plannin' on going anywhere for quite a while, I hope....
Just being real about the risks with what I'm choosing...

But...the point of those choices is to be able to LIVE again for a while...

Thank you guys for getting it...

Love n hugs...jc

a world without choices would be rather grim. i'm not thrilled about your choice, but then, it's yours and not mine. i'm behind you as a person who loves choices. and of course as a friend.

I just love you JC.... with you all the way.. and totally get it....
Huge {{{{{CUDDLES}}}}} n always here for you.... Huhs... xoxoxo

JC....Jan,

I am behind you 100%. It is your choice. I hope when I get to that point that I am allowed my choice. If not, screw 'em, I'll make my choice anyway!

You have been so quiet as of late. Such a hard decision. Complicated with all the conditions and meds. What courage you have my friend. I would be lying to say I am not saddened and crying, but I will get over it. I love you and you have opted for QUALITY OF LIFE. So be it. So say we all.

All I ask, is that you please have your DH contact us in some way if something were to happen. We need to be able to say good bye, even if just in our hearts. I have no words, for they are inadequate, to describe how much you mean to me. I always look for you first on here, and my heart is lifted when I see you. I do not know what to say....just.....I love you.

I will honor your choice by giving you QUALITY OF LIFE here on DS as well. So, be yourself. Grab that Quality. Enjoy each and every moment to the fullest! Scream, cry, vent if you need yes, of course. But be you. Do not be afraid to enjoy, love, laugh.......live!

You have such a gift of love, light, humor, and laughter in you.

You have a way of enjoying the simple ironies of life and taking us with you until we are a giggling mass on the floor all reaching for our "Lifealert" buttons cuz we can't get up!

So go for it Sister! Grab that QUALITY OF LIFE and ride that sucker like a roller coaster with your hands high in the air, screaming at the top of your lungs and grinnin' ear to ear!

Smiling and crying simultaneously,

Tonna

Love ya chick. Your posts never fail to amaze me and take my breath away.
It breaks my heart what you have to deal with and I'd give anything to be able to help with any of it.
As it is I come along to this wee group and bask in the light of your strength, your humor and your indomitable spirit.
You are a truly fantastic and marvelous person who I am staggeringly lucky to know.

I have so much respect for you and your decision. I myself would choose quality of life over quantity as well. I am still trying to get that quality and don't know if I ever will. You are such an amazing person who stands her ground. I agree with everything Tonna said and couldn't have said it better myself. You are so strong and courageous.

You have held me up when I was down as well as others. Now it is our turn to hold you up and help you achieve that quality. We are here for you no matter what. Please continue to be an inspiration to us and give us your words of wisdom. Share with us you laughs and ups and downs. You have been there for so many of us. Now it is our turn to be there for you!

I admire you for making such a difficult decision and hope that you are able to get that quality of life you a searching for.

Many huhs

Jenna

I understand your decision and am at that same point in the road. What is life if you can't enjoy it? You have the right to make this decision for yourself as we all do. I would never pity you lady! You are a tigress and I will always love you. Just hope you keep in touch.

Love and huhs,
Sis

Have you been to John Hopkins yet? Like your Dr. and family wanted you to? Where they might figure out what is wrong? A team of Dr.'s that know about respiratory/heart/autoimmune disease? No? Then why the hell not?!

I think your selfish as hell Jan! You won't even try. It's a damn suicide that won't be labeled as a suicide isn't it?!

The rest of you! I am suprised at your politically correct replies to her! Instead of telling her what your really feel and think!
Did any of you stop to think she might be in a real deep depression? And maybe she needed someone to fight for her because the fight had gone out of her?

Would you tell your kids to give up? that their decision (because they are depressed) is ok? When you know they haven't done everything they could first? Jan was asked to go to John Hopkins and she has refused.

Just write your friend off....it's her decision...she's nobody to us...right?! just another cyber person.

I think you all care more than this!!! Damn the political correct answers!! Is that really you? Was that really how you felt? It's ok to accept someone is choosing to die? REally?! DAMN DAMN DAMN~!

Dixie...
You tiger in a kitty costume :-) ......I just love the hell out of you....
Hun...there are SO many undiscussed factors on these boards.....and, you know I get bored
With the specifics of my health issues :-)
You should know that my husband, and even my Mom accepted this with relative ease....
And they have been witness to many many yrs that it took to get here..

My daughter....who shares a lot of your great qualities, K,.......was very angry for a while....
Also calling it suicide....and bringing up a lot of the things you did...
Of course, she wants me here with her and to see her son grow for as long as possible...
For the longest time, I've thought the fight for life was sparing my family my pain
Becoming their sufferring...
And it has been all along.....
I've known grief, K.......it eases....it becomes more bearable.......THIS does not

When I asked my daughter if this is how she will remember me now.....she had no answer...
I WILL be the wife and mother they would want to remember instead of their patient..

Listen, Y'all....
It was Cherrys experience with her Med that made me decide to quit " hiding my own Easter eggs"...
I've had similar experiences with the meds...and was coming up on the next raise...


Oh, hell...tirin' of my own ramble here...K...if you keep having a hard time with this...I'll call ya
In a bit when I'm just a little more sorted out...

Please, Dixie...I love ya..and your spirit and your honest response here...but ease up on everyone
Else here.....they may know a fact or two more....or they may be a little closer to my
Place in the road....doesn't matter....no one's replying out of PC, I KNOW that....

( to avoid confusion...Dixie...referred to you as Dixie and K in the above...

I FRIGGIN' LOVE YOU GUYS....

Let's move on and take what anyone wants to discuss with me off boards..and I don't mind talkin' about anything with any of you.....y'all know that.......LMBM is sacred if insane ground :-)