me...
here. kinda just ho-humming along.
(which is better than curled up in bed crying/screaming..........
....though...not to be confused with living....
sigh
(ok...yeh..little self pity leaking here..wanna make something of it ?
ok...umm...yeh,again....some irritability, as well
( some around here on reality might casll it outright bitchiness..
( I KNOW... I just TRIPPLE parenthesised..
9...not a word...
qaudruple !!
it's a record !!!!

god...I'm as boring as I am bored.
i used to say..
back when I was still a human being..
'If you're bored............you're boring".
(no...I don't know who coined that phrase)

anyyywaaaaay.....again..

how the Hell are you ?

Hi there! Nice weather here-in 80's. A/C is still on and I am still here!

Jeri

hola Jeri !
glad you popped back up lately.. :-)
our weather is lovely today, as well..
and..we need to appreciate each moment of that here..
because we go right from the cooler to the heater.
in fact..have had the air on days and heat nights a couple of times already this year.

of course..like a lot of us..
I live in my own personal climate. ( I'm hot when everyone else is cold and visa versa...)

hugs to you... :-)

I'm above the "Green" today. No promises about tomorrow. Pain = exhaustion = anger= TMI.

Thankful for DS being here for us. I love the friends I have made and the support I have been given.

Hugs and positive energy for each and everyone.

Not pushing daisies yet. Would so love to have a spring in my step though. I feel pretty darn useless most days. Looking for a smile day.

Fall is my favorite season and I am trying to find some joy in it.

Wishing everyone peace and love.

hippy

Rj..
that wasn't TMI...it's what we're here for.
when WE ask..how the hell are ya...it's because we want to know.
you are much appreciated, as well.

hippyshake.... :-) ( can't remember who called you that ?
i hear ya , my freind. pining for that feeling of DOING something, too.
what you contribute here.....
does A LOT.

luvnhugs to each and all..
wouldn't a real group hug be great ?

A real group Hug would be wonderful! Indeed.

Me, well the mind would love to get out and about but the body isn't up for it. So looks like I'm following the trend here.

The weather I'd chopping and changing. Yuk!

My thoughts are with you all, wishing I could through a get together so we could make each other laugh through our crappy days. I had a girlfriend text me Friday to see if visiting yesterday between 1 and 3 would be O K ? I was happy and replied all good. I was looking forward to catching up. I know friends get busy, any way, she came at 1/4 to 3 and apologized that she had got caught up and she had to go to a meeting at 3pm.
A quick chat about the meeting and off she went. As she was leaving she asked if I was OK, I answered yes, gave her a hug and said I hoped we could get together soon.

I closed the door, and cried. This is what happens when you are stuck at home.....seems like I'm last on the list. I'd dressed nice, put make up on in hope we would go out for a coffee. We have been friends since we were 16. Today I'm just sad. DH offered to take me out. But today, the aches are up and I just feel like shutting out the world...

Sorry, for the vent, I have so much to be grateful for. It's just a shitty day and sometimes you just need a girlfriend x

aaaw..poor Shoes. sorry you got let down. bud. I'd go for coffe with you if I could.
luvnhugs

Huge (((Hugs,. Huhs)))) and Seasonal change Sparkles Dear Friends.....

He He..... a Pre-season, check-in.... So Check.... 8-) I'm In........ it's getting rather tropical here all ready n it's only spring.....

Ummmm, will try n update soon, needing, and, sneaking off to bed to sleep n rest these flippers..... busy week this week with the PM Team and some specialists... Ummm, Yaay...

N sigh Shoes, I'm sorry,.. that really pulled at my heart strings... Dang, these bloody Illness we all struggle with each day,. Hope you two can get together soon and have a catch up.... Gentle (((Hugs))))

Huge Hugs Everyone,... Loving you Bunches xoxox

Thanks Jan and Seek. I talked with her and we cried together. She understood how I felt. By no means did she want me to feel that way, it was a missunderstanding after so many times of me not being well lately.....

We had a good talk about the the "spoons" . I treasure her and told her so, I think now the communication on both sides will be better in the future.

Seek, I really hope this week brings much needed relief and new pain management for you. I'm praying, and that is big!

How good would it be to live in a magical world where we could all be able to meet up for coffee and give a real Hug to each other? You people touch my soul like no others. I'm humbled and blessed by each and every one of you. Thankyou x

I wish we could do a group Skype! All sit around in our comfy chairs but be able to talk and laugh and see each other. I wish we could do that!

I'm here as well. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't hurting both physically and emotionally. The emotionally part is regressing a bit though. I feel stronger. Not so damned sad and weepy.


I did however embarrass myself at the grocery store on Saturday. I was feeling so shitty that day. I hurt, I was nauseas, tired...the works. Well, now I do have anyone I can rely on. If we need food, I have to go get it.
So....drag my unhappy ass to the store, spend an hour shopping, did self checkout because the lines were horrible, so I scanned then bagged all the food. Trying to pay with my debt card....come to find out they have something wrong with their system due to some problem that was affecting people nationwide! I was first quite angry because no signs were at the register to suggest I stop posthaste. She said you may write a check or pay with cash. Well, I didn't have my checkbook nor cash. So I started crying...told her how signs should have been posted all over the store but especially at the registers! She suggested I run home and grab my checkbook?!? What? No....I'm sick, sore and frustrated. I told her I was going home and they could put everything away. There was a lot of crying during the whole exchange:(

I did apologize the next day, because it wasn't her fault these things happened. But I haven't had a complete meltdown like that in awhile.

I love you all, I'm taking two Aleve and going to bed:)

Deb, I understand! Had a similar experience myself a couple of months ago. Crying at the meat counter, I bent over and had searing pain, before I knew it, I was crying. I felt so mad at myself. I know I can order on line! My daughter was with me, but in another aisle.......we need things to just flow and when they don't, it takes a toll.

You are correct, they should have had a sign up! The Banks want us to live in a "cashless" society", I'm sorry this happened to you. I'm glad you walked away, I'd have done the same! Their problem! It isnt easy for us to " just run home" and come back.

You are still adjusting to a new way of life. One you didn't choose, and it sucks!

Sending you a great big Tiger Hug, Lisa xx

Well I'm still around...

. I'm sorry for being spotty with my check ins , I am also sorry to hear that several of you are having such a rough time, my thoughts are with you. And I am hoping you find relief somewhere .

I have been busy going to cardiac rehab 3days a week for an hour of pretty intense excersize. I also am going to a therapy pool 3 days a week for my back. I have also been volunteering a couple of hours a week with disabled adults and kids, so I guess I've been trying to work on my mental health by staying almost too busy.
I am so pleased to see you all and am wishing you the best
Thank you all for your acceptance and support

Peace n Hugs
Michael

I sure need to remember to proofread before I hit post...lol. But then you all have managed all this time, I shouldn't spoil you!

Shoes....I love you for sharing your story with me, it's comforting to know that I'm not alone in the emotional breakdown dept. I'm still in crazy pain, my body just is not coping with seasonal changes and all the stress. Where I was down to only slightly reliant on my breakthrough meds a few weeks ago, now I'm using them daily again...grr!

On a good note, either the antidepressant is working or I'm getting over his stupid ass:) I do feel better in that dept. I'm not naive, I know I'll still have bad days caused by him, but I believe they will now be fewer and farther apart!

Anyone have any wild and exciting plans for this weekend?

Hugs and love to all!

Ummmm....... Still Present.... Here,.... Ummmm, I thinks..... 8-)

Full on week with docs, n tests.... hmmmm,... changed a few things and in the process of swapping meds around flippers crossed.......... So I may be a bit quiet and become one of those strange lurking type creatures till things settle into a new norm.... Wah Ha Haaaa....

Sending huge Huhs, Hugs and Lots of Sparkles.... n no making a mess in the house ... Huh.... xoxoxooxox