Let me be Me Community Group
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i do have a question. it is the point of this post.
but i must begin by saying that 2013 very very nearly killed me ...so far....and my abilitieis to be coherent in my askings and answerings has been ........fucked up.
so.......in getting to my question..i'm liable to run down a few rabbit trails on the way there....my apologies.
ok.....deep breathe...here we go..........we each have our ways of expressing our concern for one another. our own ways of doing our best to help one another in rough spots(rough spots..that's a ridiculous understatement i stole from Deb in describing times of awful pain and depression when she speaks of herself...tough gal our deb) we respond to each other in many ways."prayers" "healing energy" various "thoughts" of one sort or another...my point is..we hear different phraseology from different folks that all mean basically the same thing."i care about you and am doing all i can for you from where i am"
fantastic stuff........loving stuff........just great.
i'm going to lump all these wonderful loving thoughts and efforts (for the sake of my question) under the single heading of "loving help"
NOW.........the question(well....eventually NOW the question)......we all have many troubles....maybe just one or a few diagnosed ones but as we all know...one causes many......then more.
her we go now......THE question.
remember the "loving help"
out of aaaaallllll the problems each of us has........what is the ONE SINGLE ONE that you would like everybody who reads this and wants to take part........to give you their "loving help" for.
i'll start.
many of you know lots of my issues......there's a few.
and , as i said.....this year, they all seemed to get a power boost........i'm fucked up.
but...the ONE thing..that i request the loving help of you.....the best friends i've EVER had.......the people i love and respect more than any group i've ever known is.......my marraige .....i'm not gonna go all detaily about it.
i just want the "loving help"s of a spectacular group of people to be out there in the cosmos......maybe..balancing out..........the rot that has .......well you get it.
i hope some others answer with your own "one single thing"......otherwise i'm gonna feel like a fool(youd think i'd get used to that but.i still don't like it :)
i know a lot of us have been really trounced lately....too many.
and i figured if we all(some?) got some personal need out here in one thread(doesn't even need to be your worst one....who can narrow THAT down anyhow?).....just somethin that is personal and troublesome enuff to bring us all kinda back .......together i guess.
am i makin a BIT of sense?......been a real problem me gettin anything to make sense to others.
i also wanna say, since i have been REALLY havin this problem(not here.not with you).....that i've meant nothing bad here at all. i never (almost) mean anything bad but my meanings have been taken all kinds of amiss in other areas of my life lately.
the last thing i would ever want to do is insult ANY of you.
i really don't think i have ..but.......seems to be my only talent in some places. so.if i have .i'm truly sorry.
ok.
arms hurt......fingers are leavin me...brain got no mkore.
i hope this ......aahhh been there alraedy.
i love you guys....each and all.
whatever else is troubling my life.......HERE.WITH YOU......i am trulytruly blessed
PEACEall
T
but i must begin by saying that 2013 very very nearly killed me ...so far....and my abilitieis to be coherent in my askings and answerings has been ........fucked up.
so.......in getting to my question..i'm liable to run down a few rabbit trails on the way there....my apologies.
ok.....deep breathe...here we go..........we each have our ways of expressing our concern for one another. our own ways of doing our best to help one another in rough spots(rough spots..that's a ridiculous understatement i stole from Deb in describing times of awful pain and depression when she speaks of herself...tough gal our deb) we respond to each other in many ways."prayers" "healing energy" various "thoughts" of one sort or another...my point is..we hear different phraseology from different folks that all mean basically the same thing."i care about you and am doing all i can for you from where i am"
fantastic stuff........loving stuff........just great.
i'm going to lump all these wonderful loving thoughts and efforts (for the sake of my question) under the single heading of "loving help"
NOW.........the question(well....eventually NOW the question)......we all have many troubles....maybe just one or a few diagnosed ones but as we all know...one causes many......then more.
her we go now......THE question.
remember the "loving help"
out of aaaaallllll the problems each of us has........what is the ONE SINGLE ONE that you would like everybody who reads this and wants to take part........to give you their "loving help" for.
i'll start.
many of you know lots of my issues......there's a few.
and , as i said.....this year, they all seemed to get a power boost........i'm fucked up.
but...the ONE thing..that i request the loving help of you.....the best friends i've EVER had.......the people i love and respect more than any group i've ever known is.......my marraige .....i'm not gonna go all detaily about it.
i just want the "loving help"s of a spectacular group of people to be out there in the cosmos......maybe..balancing out..........the rot that has .......well you get it.
i hope some others answer with your own "one single thing"......otherwise i'm gonna feel like a fool(youd think i'd get used to that but.i still don't like it :)
i know a lot of us have been really trounced lately....too many.
and i figured if we all(some?) got some personal need out here in one thread(doesn't even need to be your worst one....who can narrow THAT down anyhow?).....just somethin that is personal and troublesome enuff to bring us all kinda back .......together i guess.
am i makin a BIT of sense?......been a real problem me gettin anything to make sense to others.
i also wanna say, since i have been REALLY havin this problem(not here.not with you).....that i've meant nothing bad here at all. i never (almost) mean anything bad but my meanings have been taken all kinds of amiss in other areas of my life lately.
the last thing i would ever want to do is insult ANY of you.
i really don't think i have ..but.......seems to be my only talent in some places. so.if i have .i'm truly sorry.
ok.
arms hurt......fingers are leavin me...brain got no mkore.
i hope this ......aahhh been there alraedy.
i love you guys....each and all.
whatever else is troubling my life.......HERE.WITH YOU......i am trulytruly blessed
PEACEall
T
I friggin' HATE it when that happens.
I don't know how to express my appreciation of the warm home you all have made here. It really seems like the only safe place on DS. You are all such unique and beautiful human beings. I love how you all can share so much and be so kind and understanding. I'm sorry I'm not able to contribute as much as I would like to. It takes me quite a while to write, get my thoughts together and spell correctly to make sense.
Chronic pain is like being a prisoner of war, with only our minds (and possibly medications) to break us free for a while.
I think of you all every day and always wish the best for you all.
I better post this before it gets lost. I'll try and write more later. :D
You're a valued member here. I can't contribute as much as I'd like to, either..so, I understand that frustration..
I also know how much you care in spite of not always being able to communicate.
..you should think.." I love how WE all..not 'you all.'...because you're one of us, bud.
Luvnhugs
jc
Hero I am so glad you are here and you say it all so well.
Shoes I am thinking how strong you are and holding you close for all that is going on.
Deb oh you lovely tiger so sorry you lost your post. It will all come again and right now we will wait for that.
I can't sign on as jancam ..
And..hugs/messages often won't come to this account.
So..
Hugs to you all.
And..
How are things with your " issue? "
Luvnhugs
jc
Deb, That really sucks! :( I can relate to how devastating it can be to lose a post.
Sorry you're having DS problems Jc. I was wondering about that. I had tried to send you hugs and they never went through. ?
I hardly ever get email from DS about anything anymore.
I think I've actually gotten to the acceptance stage, though I'm still vacillating through the angry mad, sad, I want to be able to participate more, be productive and contribute stages.
If I could get help with one thing, it would be to focus better on what really matters. To make each day I have here count. To be more aware of the beautiful, lovely and joyful things in my life. To be grateful for those things. I've lived a pretty long life. I'll be 50 in the Fall. That is a lot longer than many people get.
Thank you for starting this post peaceful T. :)
Strength, love & beauty my dear friends. :D
Black depression and physical pain are so hard to bear. The "one thing" that I need help with is my loneliness. I live alone. I spend most of my time alone. Chronic pain has robbed me of my once active social life. I feel like I could go mad at times. lol
You are all beautiful in my eyes.
Heather
Poor Heather. I mean that so sincerely.
My husband works A LOT ( not complaining..just stating)..
So..on a much lesser level..I understand loneliness. ( I withdrew from my friends when I felt I couldn't think about anything but my pain some years back).
Anyway..
I do know how ..heartaching ..loneliness can feel.
I hope you find some comfort in DS, as I do.
...I'm sorry...I wish there was more to offer.
Luvnhugs
jc
My heart aches that such beautiful, wonderful people must live with the crosses you have to bear and it forever restores my faith in humanity that you are able to give so much love and strength to others in need.
I wish I could do more to alleviate the loneliness and social isolation that some if not all of us here feel at one point or other... Message me if you want to chat about anything or if just want contact... I know I'm not too active at the moment but any message I get will be answered quickly.
It really can't be said enough... You are the most inspiring and lovable group of people anyone could ever hope to meet. I feel so blessed to have every single one of you in my life.
i been thrashed.
could not get on here.
barely here right now but i've read through this whole thing.
you guys.each and all...you make me cry
you make me smile
you make me laugh
you make me feel not alone
you inspire me.
you are the best group of people i know.
i say that a lot.......and i mean it every time.
i've read through this.
i wrote the original post in despair.
this , then has turned into a thread of true hope
and joy.
these things, i realize CAN be had.
i have them here
with you.
the personal relationship i have with every single one of you on here......amazing.
as i bveen reading the things you've said......i been flashin back.
i have a history with each of you.
as i've read your responses here...that history has come back.
you are all so special
so unique
and yet....we are all the same.we are here.we came for ourselves....i kniow i did."support gtroup" right?
i came around here for help.
i could NEVER have envisioned the "suppoirt" and "help" i have receievd and continue to get.......even when i can't get on here.
i'm still havin trouble gettin my thoughts into words......but know this.....i've known a lot of tough and special people in my life.
you guys are the very tops.
i keep goin on about the iron road........but.it's real.we all know that.
and you guys are iron yuourselvesd.
i exagerate NONE AT ALL when i say...more than a few times .my life on the planet has been saved .by you guys.
as individuals....and as a group...I owe you guys my Life.
Thankyou
I love you
i always sign off with Peace.....that is a prayer.
every time i am prayin that whoevber raewds it..finds some.
i haven't yet.i spent too much of my life rejecting the spirit of Peace.
don't know if i'll receive it this side of the River.
but Joy......that's a different matter.
the Lord has made it possible for me to actually apprehend Joy....HERE......on this iron road.
and it is through you....my true friends.that this is made possible to me.
i can lay cryin on the ground with pain that takes my vision.......and wear a smile.
that's from you.......i thank the Lord for you each and all........you amaze me
PEACE
T
I so wish you could have joy AND relief.
Luvnhugs
jc
i am headed off heer as my handsd are tryin to fall off...but..saw yopu her.gonna hug you up here(right in front of everybody!).because i have trouble gettin to your account.
i love you my friend..SLOBBERSLOBBERSLOBBER .yep...right in public.
that's how much.
i wish the same for you my friend....but
i'm blessed in this pain.i truly am.i have never and would never meet such amazing people.if it wasn't here.
so.....i'll be ok.
better.....i'll be great.
loveyou Jc..trulutrulyIdo
PEACE
T
i love this place.
waaaaiiittt a minute.
she's your girl.
mayber I should be jealous.
ooooooorrr uuuhhhh maybe just uuuhh.................nevermind.
loveyou 'Nite