Hey man I'm happy...... more rope?

Ain't letting my Sisy go down in there..... 8-) oxoxoxo

Good Boy..... No drinking, smoking or well being naughty.... Sex drugs n rock "n" roll......

Sex.... hmmmm Whats that? he he....

What about /ybersex...does that count? Cause, I'm gonna go get out of this sexy outfit if that's the case.

...doesn't CP pretty much take care of those worries, anyway?
My poor DH......that's all I'm gonna say about that.

I'll show you sexy...be right back!

...you bitch

jesalousy will get you nowhere!!!!

Seek...I gave you my heart now here's the bod it used to be in!

Jeeeez I'm glad I put my "Designer" boxer shorts on.... n had a shower

Bella Chicka's everywhere...... Hope I got that right (beautiful girls)...

Used to be, Sis? I bet it still is....

Listen...I really thought this....

Seremity n I had talked about posting before and after pics { of how CP has changed us, basicly)

So...I found a before pic...I've never been a camera lover, so I have to edit out others from it...
I also, incredibly....'cause I REALLY have hatdd the camera last year or so........found an after pic.....
Very real....from when I was starving and my heart was being affected...it shows clearly in pic.

Couple of days ago, I was going to have my daughter take a current pic....
Now.....here's the too true part.....
I actually thought....I have to dress nicely n do my hair n make-up.
Why?
Honestly......'cause I wanted to look better if Seek saw it.
Am I going to cancel this reply...?
Maybe later.
Point is.....I actually cared about the way I presented myself....that doesn't happen much any more.

My poor DH had gotten so in the ha it of saying every time he looked at me " you need to eat"..... out of love and concern, I know........
And, pain n illmess does age you.....

But, thing is, when I DID care for a bit how I looked....I noticed I am starting to look a little more like me...if a much smaller, me....again...

I vet, Sis...if you aren't comparing yourself to the old you.....you look much better than you think, too.

This is a bit of a senseless damble n I'm OK with that for now

I hear you but it is really really hard to know what I shpould look like or what I would've looked like if I did not get sick for 12 years! I do not know what normal is for my age because of the 12 years I lost. And I do not feel like nor look like myself or as I believe myself would've been.

So glad you guys are talking about this.... just listening, understanding and no judgement...
I have been a carer of ex-wife illness, and, now with my own image of "chronic illness"

Seek I didn't know your ex wife was ill too. Is that why you got divorced?

Nope...we're not what we would have been...no doubt about that.
Look....really look at other women your age....then look at you without comparison to old you or what you " should" be now.
I do simcedely believe it's not how you....we...have thought.
We took care of our bodies when we were healthy, Sis....compare now against women who didn't and don't no matter their health.
We...you n me...r gonna have to do pics, if only between us...
I think we were both pretty attractive ( I think hot was the word you used once) women who expected to stay that way....and we've become lousy judges of how we look now....as in too critical

Steve...surely guys have the same concerns..?
Of course, you're a bit younger than us, so, maybe not so much yet?

Yep she had bulima / anorexia.... got her well... really hard battle for the both of us....
Then I started getting sicker n sicker.... eventually the stress triggered her off again...
It was a situation she would flare, I stress, then I flare became a viscious cycle..
We are better as great friends.... she's now in London, traveling n working..., felt like I was slower her ambitions down..... pls forgive spelling today.... n JC nuke anything you need.....