No one? Dayummm =_=

Ayyy, I seriously think that is happening to me now. But there is more to this story so read on. Been with my new girl for a few weeks. Things started kinda f'd up between us because we agreed to be fbuddies at first. Something happened, I didn't last and caved. I really fell hard for her and had my head in the clouds for a while til I realized how fast we were moving and got scared...same reason why I didn't wanna get involved with her in that way to begin with. So I had to tell her we need to slow down. Soon as I did that, she put up a wall and started distancing herself. One day she would be really loving and sweet on me, then the next day she could care less if I'm breathing (I'm exaggerating, of course!) I'm really in love with this woman and I feel what I do is all about pleasing her. I'm very supportive to her and am always there for her as much as possible. My friends think I'm borderline stupid because I cater to her so much and have been so patient with her mood swings and less than perfect treatment of me. She constantly thinks all I want from her is sex and she doesn't trust me, not even if it's just to have an innocent lunch with a friend. She told me today that I'm kinda needy, though I feel I'm like that only because she ignores me right when I need her the most. She used to text me so much during the day but those texts have stopped to almost zero...I'll be lucky if I get five out of her in one day, and most of them are one or two-word answers. I'm so torn right now. I love her so much yet I feel like she tortures me and I just let her. She charms me when she wants me and when she's done with me, she drops me like a hot potato. I feel like I'm at the end of my rope. If I keep hanging on, I'll fall off for sure. If I let go, perhaps the drop won't be so far down...I won't know til I do something, I guess. So yes, I am crazy about her and she sweeps me off my feet yet she crushes me, steps all over me and then just walks away without even looking back. Any thoughts about my dilemma? I feel like I already have the answer right in front of my face yet I refuse to see it and recognize it. Yes, I am just a girl in love with a wonderful girl...what more can I say?

History is a good indicator of the future.

@Barbarame

Care to indulge us more? Is that a good thing or a bad thing tho about our history being an indicator of the future? Meaning will we end up happily with our pasts or will it continue to haunt us??

I felt my situation was a case of bad timing tho, my relationship with Lauren was getting better then it was 3 years ago cos we both grew alot. I became less insecure and she became more aware of her own actions around other people. It felt deeper but I reckon it was too fast for either of us to be in a serious relationship. We made a silly pact tho, that if either of us are still single 10 years from now we might end up together because of our odd attraction to each other.

Ok so I can't totally relate to this in the sense that I haven't lived the experience. Firstly I have very few exes - 2 to be precise. But my 1st gf and I were together for almost five years. It was first love and first lots of stuff for both of us. Breaking up was a difficult decision to make but in retrospect it was the right one.
We are still friends and although we no longer live in the same area, I support her in her life whatever ways I can. Thre have been chances for romantic involvement but i did not take that road. There is Part of me that certainly wonders and I think its a natural curiosity when you have such deep feelings for a person to think "what if". I know people change and we've changed immensely over the years but I have to remind myself that there is a reason this didn't work to begin with. And no matter how much you change there is a tendency to stick with what you know - meaning habits, ways of communicating, the roles we each take on in relationships etc. Those things have a way of not changing. I have seen it happen and even in my friendship with the ex I tend to do this - reaching out more often, suggesting solutions, making myself available to her, prioritizing her needs even when I shouldn't. We are both in committed relationships but the few times in the past she has expressed reconciling with me, I am glad I decided to remain friends... Without benefits :) Good Luck!

Me and my ex were on and off for about three years. She was my first girlfriend my freshmen year of high school...and just never faded away. No matter what it took she somehow found some way back. Things with her were slightly different though, she wasn't exactly the most considerate person. She was the cause of my depression and a huge wake-up call in my life. Initially I wished we could be friends, wanted it more than anything...and it would never work out. And when I gave up was when she'd come back. But I could never shake my initial attraction for her, because she was the first girl I ever fell for.

Seeing her is and was painful, because she takes my breath away but in my head I know that the minute I let her in is the minute the rug's coming out from under me.

For me it was time to move on *shrugs*