Me and my gf have been together almost 3 years. Ever since we got together it has been an on and off relationship. She would break up with me for her ex or sometimes no reason at all. She instantly regrets it and begs me to get back with her.
My problem is that everything seems to be about her all the time. Its always that something is going on in her life, that she was upset so it didn't mean anything.
To get to the point, the relationship is toxic and i know that but at the moment we're on a break. We have been for 5 weeks. The problem is that we have a holiday together in 2 months and i haven't got the heart to kick her off it. Every day since she called the break she's been starting arguments, using guilt trips, trying to force a reaction and im just not sure i Want her in my life anymore. My parents love her but she wont stay in their life if we're not together. Its more hassle than its worth but i still love her.
Rare photo ill share of me. I hate make up! But was trying to make myself feel better and look nice for mom and dad
My bout of feeling lonely seems to have abated quite a bit. I think a disappointment with a potential friend brought it on/ triggered it. I am going to focus more on keeping busy and forgetting about making any attachments to people. Perhaps, in time, someone special will come along. Who knows? At this point, I almost don't care. I am now so used to my own company and the freedom being alone and...