Me and my gf have been together almost 3 years. Ever since we got together it has been an on and off relationship. She would break up with me for her ex or sometimes no reason at all. She instantly regrets it and begs me to get back with her.
My problem is that everything seems to be about her all the time. Its always that something is going on in her life, that she was upset so it didn't mean anything.
To get to the point, the relationship is toxic and i know that but at the moment we're on a break. We have been for 5 weeks. The problem is that we have a holiday together in 2 months and i haven't got the heart to kick her off it. Every day since she called the break she's been starting arguments, using guilt trips, trying to force a reaction and im just not sure i Want her in my life anymore. My parents love her but she wont stay in their life if we're not together. Its more hassle than its worth but i still love her.
I didn't want to get up today. Just not feeling it. Sad lonely Deppresed and with the holidays coming I just don't care. Wish I could hide in a hole till next year and start over. Life is just to much for me
I’m sick of having this dark cloud over me all the time (as I’m sure you all can relate to as well). It’s just not fair. Why can some people feel joy, or any emotion really, and all I can feel is numb, but with an underlying darkness? And I feel like a burden to the joyful people. They’re getting things done all around me and I’m just barely existing, taking up space, in their way. I...