Perphaps you have made some unhealthy choices, however that does not make you a bad person. You say "I have slept with many different girls, and have always dumped them right after and laughed it off." Hmm well my first thought is NEGATIVE KARMA for sure, then I wonder if it was a case of" dump them before they dump you", either way in the end you are hurting yourself
You say "want someone to love" and IMHO that is a normal, healthy way to feel HURRAY FOR YOU!!! I am going to assume then that perphaps you might want someone to love you too.
TIME will help you repair or change your reputation, time and good choices, everyday that you make a positive choice, leads to another day of good choices, and puts another days distance away for the old you. Forgive yourself, if you need to ask someone to forgive you, learn from your mistakes and move on. You are a Divine Child of God and The Universe, You are worthy of loving and being loved. A reputation can be like a credit rating, years to build and moments to destroy.
There are women here who are so much better than I am at responding to posts, but the main point I want to make is that just because you have made some unhealthy choices does not make you a bad person. Focus on you, your life. Good Luck

Ooops that was suppose to say " puts another days distance FROM the old you not FOR the old you. Guess I need to proof read.

Im going to go out on a limb here and presume your post was serious.

You said:

I have developed a bit of a...bad reputation in my local Lesbian community. I was (and still am) rather loose. I have slept with many different girls and have always dumped them right after and laughed it off. Not feeling much guilt about it. Yes, I know that makes me a bad person.

Eek.

I am kind of hoping this goes away and I will go back to my old ways soon. If I don't, does anyone have any idea on how i can repair my reputation?

Double eek.

I was going to suggest moving preferably across the country, but why subject the west coast to that type of behavior.

On your first comment:

Theres nothing inherently wrong with dating a lot of different women. The issue that screams out is the cavalier way you treat these women (dumped them right after and laughed it off). It seems to me that, coupled with not a lot of respect for yourself, you dont have any respect for the women who deign to have sex with you. Yes I realize the women are grown adults (hopefully) and have freedom of choice and so forth but wow, what a shabby way to treat someone. Its one thing to sleep around, its quite another to dump someone and laugh about it. You have definitely earned your reputation.

On your second comment:

What resonated with me was the phrase, Im kind of hoping this goes away and I will go back to my old ways soon. If you truly mean that, then I would suggest that you have some deep-seated self-loathing issues in addition to really not liking women all that much.

If you are serious about repairing your reputation, go get some counseling and try to unravel what it is that makes you behave toward women (and yourself) the way you do. You need to figure out a LOT of things before youre ready to actually be able to love someone (and yourself).

Good luck.

To add what has already been posted..

You are a 20 year old woman who has been exploring your world, and have made very bad choices. The 20's are ALL ABOUT learning, falling, making mistakes over and over again until you learn how to become the solid individual God put on this Earth.
Your heart is damaged and your thoughts revolve around you and you alone. This doesn't happen at birth, it happens from experiences within your 20 years on Earth.

Everyone on Earth, deserves chances to change on grow. Before you make any decisions about your external world, delve into your spirit and mental space first. Do not bring any other hearts into your world until you find out what it is that created the cold, promiscuous creature you have become. Therapy, reading, faith, self analysis, self love..etc., all can be used to help you find a more peaceful, sweet, respectable place in life.

Your goal in life is to become a beautiful, caring, authentic adult woman who is accountable for ALL her actions, and only You can make it happen.

(long hug)
Sending you strength, love and postive energy ~

It sounds to me like "hoping the urge to be in a relationship...going away soon" is just a defense mechanism because you are finding your circumstances a little uncomfortable. I think we have all made mistakes and all done things that we would probably change if we could. Dont beat yourself up! I think the fact that you reached out for advice is the first step. If you really want to "repair your reputation", just commit to it. Maybe serving up some apologies to people you have hurt would be another way to repair the damage. Besides, if you already had this reputation, I am sure some of these girls knew what they were getting into. (not an excuse, but a fact). Exploring things through therapy is a great idea also...but maturity is a righht of passage. Maybe you are just having a growth spirt and have realized you want something deeper and more meaningful in life. Listen girl.....It's really quite simple.....just dont allow yourself to continue the old behavior. Once people see you are serious about changing....things will change. Good luck and be kind to yourself as well as others and you will do just fine!!!

let me give another angle... the fact that you came here not to be judged to seek advice says a lot...you want to change your ways..and that is a first step..you know the old ways are wrong...and that maybe you are on a path in the right direction means tons... make a full fledge commitment to change for the better and then maybe you will find what you are looking for.. good luck :)

Thank you for all of the advice everyone. I should have explained myself better when I first made this topic. Yes, I do have issues with relationships and with other women. I was sexually abused by a woman when I was young-about twelve. That relationship was very cruel and continues to affect me even now as an adult.

I avoid being close to others becuase I'm honestly that scared of being hurt; whether it be physically like she hurt me, or spiritually like another girl did. Not a whole lot of girls know that, and the one girl I did tell broke up with me becuase of the emotional issues i still have.