I had a gf and she said she can wait a month or two until I get my license to be able to go see her. Well, last night she emailed me and said she doesnt think this could work because I live two hours away. I already had EVERYTHING planned out to where I was going to transfer schools after this school year to be by her and until then I am getting my license and I could drive to see her whenever I wanted to. But she said no. The way it was said tho seemed to me like she just said that was the reason because maybe something else like she is in love with someone else. IDK, I thought we could have made it. I blame my mom because she is the reason I cant go see her. I know some of you will say not to blame her, blame myself and I already do, because Im afraid I didnt listen to people I should have and even tho I thought I was ready for a relationship, I am going to college this year along with high school so I would be busy until 5 oclock at night and even after that I would most likely have homework that will take up the rest of my time. IDK. Im kind of hurting really bad right now because I loved her, and we are still friends, she wanted to still be friends so I think that would probly help and hurt my "getting over it" thing. Idk what to do, I think I should back things up a bit and listen to those I should have listened to to begin with, and get myself set before I get too attached to someone. I will still move to her town. It sounds nice. I want more than anything right now to be financially independant so I think that and my license before I worry about falling in total and complete love. My whole heart was hers. *sigh* Sorry about this, just venting I guess, needed to write it somewhere and see what others think, and please be nice, I dont want anything nasty or any "I told you so" 's.
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