Lesbian Relationship Challenges Support Group
This community is for those who are in a gay marriage, and the unique challenges that may be had in a same-sex relationship. Find support and talk to others in a same-sex marriage, and get advice from the experiences of other members.
so here we go again. i hurt i tried for 9months to stay with my gf. at first lets say 4 months was really really good. then being the addictive personality type i am aka cling on i got hooked and wanted more and more and more. she is highly independent and been burned few times and had extremely hard time communicating. bottom line i thought i was so ready to play house and she was anything but. i pretty much ended up packing the uhaul only to have it unpacked by her really quickly. i begged for months for some kind of conversation, goals a future commitment but nope not till the very end would she talk. then she got so mad cause once again i got drunk cause i was hurt and didnt want to hear what she had to say only after that day being told i was uninvited on a group trip next year cause im too emotional and tried cooking her dinner only to be told without even a hello i missed you that i messed up dinner and she totally redid everything i had cooked. so my issue is why do i keep on doing this. i am a very caring giving and loving person but she was so damn all about her self. she never came to my house, i drove an hr and stayed couple times a week and helped her at her home. she barely gave me a spot on shelf for my shoes and i was dumb enough to buy her a ring only to have it laughed at. ugh she makes me feel crazy when all i want to do is love someone and play house. i work 60 hrs week, take care of my kids and all she was concerned about was me fixing my credit so maybe someday we could play house but i was burning myself out....sry rambling just hurting badly
My sweet, beautiful friend.. OMG.. how you try and want. It breaks my heart to see your pain over and over again for almost a year :O/
Sweety ~ how do I finally get it through to your beautiful, intelligent, highly emotional head that once you feel the need 'to beg'.. the relationship is not healthy? You either FIT ~ after the Euphoria fades - or you don't.
We 'fit' or we don't and after all this time, I feel that your search needs to stop for a while. IMO, You need to let go of finding a partner, and find 'yourself'. How many times will you put yourself through the 'ever present circle?".
Something is screaming at you, internally, instinctively to 'listen' and find yourself dear one! You aren't going to find your place here on this journey through someone else honey. Not RIGHT NOW. You have an inner journey to experience FIRST.
I have no wise words for you anymore, just full, real support for your ever present journey. I embrace you and send you all my strength and energy to see yourself in time ~ to clearly and beautifully learn, so that the door of love you have been wanting.. is finally, really presented to you.
((hug))