I'm not sure if this is right group to post this in or not but hey this is the closest thing I could find to what I'm feeling so here goes nothing. 

I have zero confidence. I know so many people tell me I'm beautiful and I get complimented almost everyday. I'm 5;8,220 lbs,heavily tattooed,bleach blonde female. 

I know I'm not "ugly"

But I can't stop comparing myself to other women. 

Every other woman I see I think "I wish I was as thin as her","I wish my butt looked like that","I wish my hair was that long" etc etc. 

I've never felt "good enough" 

I know looks are only skin deep,I know it's what's inside that matters. But I have zero confidence because I can't stop trying to be everyone else but myself. 

This has been a problem for me ever since I was a child. 

I've never liked the way I look. 

I've not always been this way,when I was 18 I starved myself into 150 pounds and I was happy then but it was so hard to only eat very little to nothing just to maintain my "looks" 

I gained over 70 lbs in a little over 3 years and began hating myself again for it. 

Now every time I look at myself in the mirror I think "this is wrong,this is wrong,that's wrong,you're hideous,why would anyone ever want you"etc. 

People say working out would help but I suffer from bipolar depression most days it's a struggle just to brush my teeth. Let alone work out 

I really want to stop feeling this way,I want to stop feeling like anyone and everyone is better than me.

I'm tired of hating myself.  I don't know what to do. Any advice is openly welcome