There's this girl....well actually she's my best friend....since 3rd grade....we've always been all each other has had....but this year I'm homeschool...she's starting her freshman year...she started smoking pot in 8th grade...just a few times a month...she kept asking me to, but I have alot against pot... just some personal things that happeed before... but she doesn't know about it...anyway, I got over her doing it, I accepted it....but this year she's doing so much worse...getting into shrooms and acid and other drugs ... she's ALWAYS high on pot...she'll ditch school to do it, and call me...I'll have to go pick her up 'cause she can't go back to class and she can't call her mom.... she ditches me to get high...when she isn't high she says "Man I wish I had a bowl"....I used to sell drugs actually, so she'll ask me if I know where she can get some....I'll turn her down...she'll get mad at me....the other night I confronted her....it turned out HORRIBLE!!!! I asked if she had to choose weed or me which one would she choose....she couldn't answer me...which gave me the answer anyway.... then she texted the next day....told me she was gonna quit the drugs....asked if she could stay the night..I said yeah.........
She came over high and had more weed in her jacket.....It broke my heart.... then the next day she asked if I wanted to go hang out with her and some friends....pretty much everyone in this town smokes pot except me...I said no, 'cause I knew they were going to....she told her mom she was staying the night at another friends house, but she went to this guys house with some other friends....She texted me at 1 in the morning...she kept asking me to come get her, she was begging actually...then she said "he's touching me".....that got to me....so I went and picked her up...we got to my house and she said "I just wanna be high"....that was last night....I've been sooo emotional the past...4 days i think, she's all I have...and she keeps going to the drugs....is it wrong of me to be "jealous" of drugs?