I want to stop worrying so much about everything. I constantly find myself wanting to ask, is everything ok? Am i ok?

I feel this way right now! I want more than anything to stay sober but I'm alone
In this. No one is here to cheer me on or help. Can I do this alone? What happens if I can't?

I can relate to you more than you know. How are you doing? My first time here

I know about those feelings. I just recently 2 days ago had the same feeling.. I am new to this whole online thing but can relate in more than one of these forums. I have tried to quit and have done so so many times. I feel myself slip back to the same place and sometimes further than before. I always look at people and feel that I am the only one with this problem. I feel like I am never able to do anything right but drink. I understand your questions. I sat in my car in a parking lot 2 nights ago wondering if anyone cared. I had a six pack in the passenger seat and a loaded gun in my hand. I find myself today off the wagon, which is where I do not want to be, but there is so much more to life. My wife always says that I always look at the negative. I realized that I do. Maybe try to look for the positive in something. Today my kids and I are watching a movie together after they were outside playing. Maybe just a small positive but at the same time it is a positive because now I know my kids want to do things with me here. You should find one positive thing in your day. That may help..

I know about those feelings. I just recently 2 days ago had the same feeling.. I am new to this whole online thing but can relate in more than one of these forums. I have tried to quit and have done so so many times. I feel myself slip back to the same place and sometimes further than before. I always look at people and feel that I am the only one with this problem. I feel like I am never able to do anything right but drink. I understand your questions. I sat in my car in a parking lot 2 nights ago wondering if anyone cared. I had a six pack in the passenger seat and a loaded gun in my hand. I find myself today off the wagon, which is where I do not want to be, but there is so much more to life. My wife always says that I always look at the negative. I realized that I do. Maybe try to look for the positive in something. Today my kids and I are watching a movie together after they were outside playing. Maybe just a small positive but at the same time it is a positive because now I know my kids want to do things with me here. You should find one positive thing in your day. That may help..

i went to a meeting I have been so depressed since I moved to a new town,, I am very lonely drinking beer wine here and there, to self medicate , On the drive God showed up it is near water and I saw a gorgeous sunset, and it was at a church I said to God I dont make it on Sundays hope this counts was a great meeting got so much out of it,,, because i connected to other souls on a journey to lick this dreaded addiction , and under the booze is loneliness selfishness isolation fear anger and alot of stuff that goes along with carrying a life of attitudes bitterness resentment cuz it did not turn out the way you hoped and you did not get all the cookies in the cookie jar once I had 2 years ,God it felt good to go there tonite I am going back,, another addict who cant make it without other addicts

I have the same feelings, when you don't know what to do in life. I do believe God is always there for you, when you are feeling lonely and depressed. I forget to pray sometimes, when I do start feeling lonely I pray and that makes me feel better every time, I try to think positive at times to, because behind every negative theres is something postive, it goes both ways.

I understand how you feel. I know that drinking and doing drugs will only hurt me, but I just want to be able to breathe...

Your not alone in your struggle. think of the millions of people that are in programs right now that are doing it everyday, do you think your feelings are different than all of them...I doubt it. I know "I" feel exactly as you do. A LOT, but nothing is harder than drinking or useing everyday..think of all the crap that brings into your life. When I relapsed after 16 years...OMG I never felt so ashamed,guilty and selfish. It was horrible. the only thing that kept me from ending it all was the fact that I had a son...I couldn't do that to him..Thank God because I came very close...so I know now that if I pick up again It will be evn worse...If you need to be numb for a while try other ways..I tend to sleep a lot, or I read, just to get out of my head.... you can get thru this....I ask myself sometimes "why are some people successful in staying sober, getting healthier, moving forward, and getting in a better financial situation?" The onl;y answer is the simplest one..Because they BELIEVE that they can.... That is what I have seen anyway...
If you believe you will be successful, or if you believe that you can't....either way you are right..!!! It just comes down to your thought process...you can do this

Today I feel horrible. my son is now 17 and he can be such a jerk. I don't know how NOT to take his moods personally . I feel very much alone and lonely. I am divorced and single..I had to move back home and so my son lives with his dad now...It can all be so overwhelming sometimes and I just want to give up, Earlier today I thought "Do something today that will make me feel good" so I took the dogs for a ride and paid some bills, and logged on here.
I feel much better already, just knowing I am not alone.. Thank you all for sharing your truth because it helps others so much..
Do one thing tomorrow that will lift your spirits, and hang on to the hope that this will get better...
Honestly,.... I am now 11 years sober. I am far from "Well" but I am good. I wouldn't trade all of it for anything.... the good and the bad..

I just noticed that those other posts are a year old..LOL.....I would love to know how you all are now????

Hi everyone