I totally understand!! I have been having another bout of insomnia for about 2 weeks complicated by terrible anxiety. Hate the bedroom and my house for that matter. Actually am starting ECT this week to try to help with the depression and insomnia.

I will keep you posted. Hope my memory isn't too impaired. But after all of this agony of depression/anxiety/insomnia, I think it's worth it, since no meds help. They make me a bit sleepy, but can't get over the edge for more than a couple of hours at most. Maddening!!!!

ECT!!!!!!! tell me how that goes. it sound really scary to me

I completely understand!!!!! My dog has gotten more sleep today alone than I have in the past week. I have a four year old son and I have currently not been able to do much with him as far as family time is concerned because I am so exauhsted however I am unable to sleep due to post trauma from when I was a little girl. I fear sleep sometimes because of the very vivid flashbacks I have. And I refrain from medications. So I try to make it into a positive thing by walking out in nature late at night and watching the stars, or reading a book or better yet writing my book, or cleaning or working on my inner child. I figure my Higher Power made it to where I can not sleep for a reason. So I try to make the best of it however it is very difficult a lot of the times. So far I have been up for 37 hours with no rest. I really want to sleep but now my body has gotten used to it and I am not tired. I know how frustrating it can be. Hope you find a solution soon! ((HUGS)) If you ever need a friend or someone to talk to I am almost always here, I just joined the other day but I am obsessed with recovery. :)

thanks searching.... it's good to know i have friends even if they're online!