Insomnia Support Group
Insomnia is a symptom, rather than a disease, and is characterized by inadequate quantity or quality of sleep. People with insomnia complain of difficulty falling or staying asleep, which results in significant impairment of daytime functioning. Insomnia is categorized as transient (shorter than one week), short-term (one to three weeks) or chronic (longer than three...
I think to sleep well it's almost like you have to not care or be worried about missing it. The problem is I don't know how to not become emotionally and physically invested in something I really do care about! I've been a habitual chronic insomniac for years now and HATE it so how can I not care or think about something I really do!?I probably do have Delayed Sleep Phase Syndrome and also am just not used to my new work schedule yet but this is killing me.
Those 2 things might be playing a factor in my poor sleep lately but honestly I think it's another reason entirely. I have to get up at 6 A.M for work and honestly I think I'm sleeping non restoratively because I'm scared of sleeping in. I've rehearsed in my head 1,000 times that my alarm is loud as hell and there's no way I won't hear it. But I think I still fear it-I feel threatened by it and the potential consequence of getting fired if I show up late or call in.
I already have the a billion mental challenges which are even more exaggerated by insomnia. Strangely I think I'm a smart school person on tests, exams, essays, etc but dumb in "real life" if you get what I mean. I think my general biggest problem is that I suspect I have High functioning autism or aspbergers. I'm monotone, don't make friends easily, am really poor with what most people consider "common sense" things, am extremely poor with verbal instructions, and operating equipment/objects(especially while be watched), have anxiety, low self confidence/self worth, slight depression, am so self critical, am just a negative thinker in general, have a really weird thought process in general, and maybe more!
I think that most of my problems all stem back to having high functioning autism or aspbergers(I've never gone in to be clinically diagnosed). Basically no situation is EASY for me. I think every situation I feel threatened like I'm fighting for survival(I know how ridiculous this must sound). Because it always feels like I'm trying to survive, I believe I'm always tense and can't ever feel calm or relaxed. It just seems impossible and like I have a insurmountable amount of things I need to fix if I ever want to feel how a normal human being should feel. Need to figure it out somehow someway.
Those 2 things might be playing a factor in my poor sleep lately but honestly I think it's another reason entirely. I have to get up at 6 A.M for work and honestly I think I'm sleeping non restoratively because I'm scared of sleeping in. I've rehearsed in my head 1,000 times that my alarm is loud as hell and there's no way I won't hear it. But I think I still fear it-I feel threatened by it and the potential consequence of getting fired if I show up late or call in.
I already have the a billion mental challenges which are even more exaggerated by insomnia. Strangely I think I'm a smart school person on tests, exams, essays, etc but dumb in "real life" if you get what I mean. I think my general biggest problem is that I suspect I have High functioning autism or aspbergers. I'm monotone, don't make friends easily, am really poor with what most people consider "common sense" things, am extremely poor with verbal instructions, and operating equipment/objects(especially while be watched), have anxiety, low self confidence/self worth, slight depression, am so self critical, am just a negative thinker in general, have a really weird thought process in general, and maybe more!
I think that most of my problems all stem back to having high functioning autism or aspbergers(I've never gone in to be clinically diagnosed). Basically no situation is EASY for me. I think every situation I feel threatened like I'm fighting for survival(I know how ridiculous this must sound). Because it always feels like I'm trying to survive, I believe I'm always tense and can't ever feel calm or relaxed. It just seems impossible and like I have a insurmountable amount of things I need to fix if I ever want to feel how a normal human being should feel. Need to figure it out somehow someway.
If nothing else just wanted to know your not the only one with dspd syndrome.
How well you do depends on choices you make as well as circumstances beyond your control. Make good choices and adapt to those things you can't change. Experience will give you the confidence that you can adapt.
I sleep better since I did CBT for insomnia. I did sleep restriction. It does teach you that you can still function with low sleep. This reduces the anxiety about not sleeping. I also use low dose melatonin. I only take 1mg.
I can relate to your story. I will be praying for you to succeed.
I think I don't fear not sleeping. I think I'm just tired of having to function on no sleep. I'm not depressed as in suicidal but I'm not ever happy. I present myself as nice and a good mood to others but the real me right now is usually grumpy, irritable, etc. I can function on little to no sleep but I'm just so tired of feeling like crap all the time(tired, grumpy, irritable, sorta depressed, etc). I think that's why I'm anxious to sleep well. I've also almost gotten in a few accidents on the way to work. I don't know how other insomniac's can drive early and not get in accidents. My only guess is most don't admit like it I do.