Insomnia Support Group
Insomnia is a symptom, rather than a disease, and is characterized by inadequate quantity or quality of sleep. People with insomnia complain of difficulty falling or staying asleep, which results in significant impairment of daytime functioning. Insomnia is categorized as transient (shorter than one week), short-term (one to three weeks) or chronic (longer than three...
Its so frustrating when you cant sleep but feel so tired! Whats even more agrivating is waking up expecting it to be only Midnight or 1 but it ends up being 4:15! Not only that but my mom was awake and I got up for a minute to see what she was watching on T.V and apparently I was either hitting the wall with either my hands or feet. I just don't understand what is happening when I feel like I'm not sleeping but am.
I ended up watching Dr.Phil with my mom. It was about a couple who had their grandparents watch their 6 year old child while they were on vacation. It turns out the grandpa molested the child and the child told the grandma but she didn't do anything about it, like tell the childs parents what happened. The main point I brought this up was because it made me realize something that might be important.
I was sort of bullied and sexually abused and to this day I haven't spoken of it to anyone, especially the sexually abused part. Anyway it was horrible because around 6 A.M when I tried going back to bed and couldn't sleep because I kept thinking about my childhood with someone. That transformed into me playing out strange scenarios in my mind. I played out what would happen if I were to confront the person who did this to me, if I were to tell my parents, the persons parents, and my counselor.
Pretty much it was a horrible nightmare(although I wasn't sleeping). I don't think I have the courage to talk to anyone about this, especially because it was over 5 years ago. The thing is I kind of blame myself for not talking to anyone about it, and almost forgive the kid who did it. My perception was totally different back then.
Pretty much without getting graffic about what took place, he was much more advanced than me sexually. So what occurred involved him having gone through puberty and me not. Just for the record, I'm not gay and he isn't, we were just friends and basically he was a horny teenager. If I felt the way I do now, I honestly probably would have participated in events and wouldn't have even considered it abuse. We aren't really friends anymore, we talk when we see each other/etc but we don't hang out anymore. We lived and still do live in the same neighborhood.
Totally switching gears-I've also just come to the realization that until I can have my own place, things such as t.v. watching and other people accidentally waking me up are going to happen. However I've noticed I'm starting to notice that sometimes my ears produce noises that have kept me awake in this past. That's what this whole post was about....I want to learn to self cleanse my past negative experiences(both sexually/and with my current sleep problems about things that kept me up).
Sorry guys, this was lots of talk about and such but I had the urge to write it. Honestly I don't even think about it way often or even know if it has any participation in my sleep problems since around 15 but the fact that I can remember it and sometimes might mean something. So I'm just wondering, does anyone know how to sort of self cleanse yourself? Or even have comments/suggestions?
I ended up watching Dr.Phil with my mom. It was about a couple who had their grandparents watch their 6 year old child while they were on vacation. It turns out the grandpa molested the child and the child told the grandma but she didn't do anything about it, like tell the childs parents what happened. The main point I brought this up was because it made me realize something that might be important.
I was sort of bullied and sexually abused and to this day I haven't spoken of it to anyone, especially the sexually abused part. Anyway it was horrible because around 6 A.M when I tried going back to bed and couldn't sleep because I kept thinking about my childhood with someone. That transformed into me playing out strange scenarios in my mind. I played out what would happen if I were to confront the person who did this to me, if I were to tell my parents, the persons parents, and my counselor.
Pretty much it was a horrible nightmare(although I wasn't sleeping). I don't think I have the courage to talk to anyone about this, especially because it was over 5 years ago. The thing is I kind of blame myself for not talking to anyone about it, and almost forgive the kid who did it. My perception was totally different back then.
Pretty much without getting graffic about what took place, he was much more advanced than me sexually. So what occurred involved him having gone through puberty and me not. Just for the record, I'm not gay and he isn't, we were just friends and basically he was a horny teenager. If I felt the way I do now, I honestly probably would have participated in events and wouldn't have even considered it abuse. We aren't really friends anymore, we talk when we see each other/etc but we don't hang out anymore. We lived and still do live in the same neighborhood.
Totally switching gears-I've also just come to the realization that until I can have my own place, things such as t.v. watching and other people accidentally waking me up are going to happen. However I've noticed I'm starting to notice that sometimes my ears produce noises that have kept me awake in this past. That's what this whole post was about....I want to learn to self cleanse my past negative experiences(both sexually/and with my current sleep problems about things that kept me up).
Sorry guys, this was lots of talk about and such but I had the urge to write it. Honestly I don't even think about it way often or even know if it has any participation in my sleep problems since around 15 but the fact that I can remember it and sometimes might mean something. So I'm just wondering, does anyone know how to sort of self cleanse yourself? Or even have comments/suggestions?
There are ways to process these past events that are bothering you. I suggest talking to your counselor about it.
Sounds like you're doing a good job of coming to grips with who you are, and not letting short term mood swings dictate your identity. As time goes on, be confident that by intentionally working your plan and making the deliberate positive changes you want in life, good things will result.