I would say to look into getting on some medication for the depression and possiby some therapy too. And you might want to also post this on the depression group.

try to get on medical disability, if you already are not, to have money for a place by yourself; contact social security, or whatever govt agency; there are lawyers, but you have to be careful and they probably arent needed.

being on disability, you can also get a very cheap hud apt; contact hud too.

probably best to forget about your mom; try to find a book on "toxic parents"

good luck.

Hi Jennifer,

First if you have thoughts of hurting yourself, get help now for that. There are many resources including toll free numbers you can call right now for help.

Regarding insomnia, sounds like you do sleep, just not at your preferred time. That is fixable, and it's in some ways really no different than adjusting to jet lag, something thousands of people do successfully every day. Just a matter of adjusting your circadian rhythm.

Try setting and keeping a consistent sleep schedule. Particularly important is a wake time in the morning when you want to get up. Minimize or eliminate any daytime napping. Fill your days as much as possible with both physical and mental activity. By tiring yourself out during the day, you will tend to sleep better at night.

Good luck!

I totally understand you! I am going through the same thing right now! My mom is currently considering kicking me out because I am never there enough to help her. She thinks I am lazy and only fools around all day.

Dear Justine, It's after midnight I know how you feel not getting sleep, After several spinal surgeries it has left me in chronic pain which keeps me awake. I am lucky if i get 3 hours of sleep a night, I also understand the depression your going through ,,The problem is that other people don't understand it because there not going through it, First things first you need to find a good Doctor The second thing is your Dr will recommend a psychologist to see why your depressed ,as far as your sleep have you tried melatonin you buy it over the counter works really good for awhile, the second step if that doesn't help is zzz quill just the one for sleep I have used the melatonin and the zzz quill both about a half hour apart and it does work, Please get to a Dr as soon as you can so that you get the thought of suicide out of your head, there are alot of medications out there to help trust me I have been on most of them till they found the one the works the best. I don't know where you live but every town and city has free clinics you can call your town hall and they can direct you to who you can go to or at least in the right direction. Baby steps Justine trust me you will get there I know you will just hang in there and start making phone calls to get the help you need. there is also a suicide prevention line they can help you too. I wish you the best of luck let us all know how things go for you