I'm a wreck,super depressed and,sick stressed to the max.. I feel like an idiot cause I'm struggling with all the work I have to do. It's also obvious that I'm sick cause I feel like I want to throw up all day. I seriously felt mentally insane last night. After a sleeping fit last night, I was actually suicidal this morning. If I had a gun I probably would have done it. But luckily I didn't and I just slept from 8 to 12. I feel a little better now but am still feeling depressed and hopeless. I want to go to the gym but can't make myself anymore. Just don't feel like it and then I feel guilty knowing I still have loads to do. I end up just going to sleep so it's not like I utililize the time and work on homework. But that's just the way I feel.

I haven't slept well it the longest time. Its sad when you have to say a 4 to 5 hour night of sleep is a good night sleep for you. I'm not sleeping at all at night or occasionally when I do I wake up much earlier than I desire. I don't feel like myself at all...I thought it was bad when I slept bad before but wow was I wrong. I think i'm simply so depressed and stressed that I don't even feel somewhat okay. But wow I just don't know what to do about any of my problems, Its to expensive to see a doctor anywhere and now I'm tired stuck doing all of this work and it's not letting up.