hello everyone, i have insomnia

and i am someone who never had insomnia in my life before, never ever until last year when i was almost 31

i am naturaly born as a heavy sleeper.up until the insomnia started i would doze off right away within 2 minutes even with my shoes on, with the light on, music on etc. i could fall asleep in a moving car , no problem at all, sleep through a few alarm clock rings, music in the room people in the room talking
and i would wake up after 8-10 hours refreshed. i was someone who needed about 10 hours of sleep a night, even if i went to bed at 6am i would not get up until 3pm

what hapened is i got a stalker who became obsessed over me and about a year ago they started to injure me severely, internal central nervous system injuries and traumatic brain injuries wich started the sleep trouble. after the head injury i could not doze off for 4 days. before this the most i ever stayed up was 2 nights in a row on purpose but id plop down with heavy eyes exausted and doze off right away for 8-10 hours

i keep getting injured by this stalker. they have been harming me in my own home whenever they want, burning me on my skin, causing me brain injuries.i dont know how to protect myself but last summer after one of the injuries i was attacked for a few weeks i could not sleep anymore. i was up for weeks in a row not able to doze off or feel tired anymore

i have a hard time explaining the injuries and violence because it is some loon who is in the military and stole some of those weapons and they are injuring me seriousely without me being able to say what weapon. some type of technology they use that can kill people and internally injure them without a metal bullet to find.

my doctors know i have serious injuries and documented burns, but they dont know how such serious injuries happened, they see those type of injuries in car accident victims,. i almost died after the first head injury because it caused life threatening complications and im still afraid to explain how i think the injuries happened, i was told by the stalker how they hurt me.ive been electricuted and burned and it feels like im being stabbed by a knife i can not see sometimes.and there is medical evidence

the pain is so bad i can barely move for weeks in a row and that is when the insomnia gets worse. but my sleep has not returned to normal since last summer. i have not had one night of normal sleep

i have reccurent injuries and that is just adding more injuries and worsening the damage my stalker did in the first place.i have spent the past 2 months with severe back pain and headaches and the sleep issue got worse after the back pain started
after i felt i was being hit by something, sharp stabbing pain in my back and head

i have not had an easy life, ive been through more tramatic things and even was depressed years ago and it NEVER caused me sleep trouble, emotions dont stop me from sleeping. so i know it is not from stress or anxiety about the current crazy situation

i know myself and know it is not it. i have fallen asleep a minute after a heated fight with abusive family members with tears on my face and still fell asleep

even when loved ones have passed away, i still had no trouble sleeping that night even when spending the whole day crying

so i know i cant sleep because im not physicaly able to due to the severe internal damage i have from being injured/abused

some kind of connection trouble or imbalance due to the injury.the tests showed serious damage to a few parts of my brain,torn axons,inflamation etc and irregular electric activity
and i also have tests of my back and that shows damage to my spine area from whatever was hitting me, i was electericuted and have long term burns

i dont like to explain my situation of how my injuries happened because i dont like to not be believed, after all i have been through. it is easier for me to just tell people i fell somewhere and hit my head but i did not.

i just know what i experienced, the evidence i have and what i was told by stalkers and threat details they made.

i do not feel tired anymore, no matter what,.even after exerting myself, taking melatonin, exercize, tea etc. i dont feel tired like i did a year ago

and i have weird tremors, like my head shakes from side to side when i look close in the miror. it is odd and that started after i was being injured when i had the severe back pain and spine area damage it just started the day i stopped feeling tired and didnt sleep anymore

i have tried sleeping pills, they dont help. i miss feeling tired like how i used to feel before the injuries, my eyes got heavy and the feeling before you go to sleep where you are drowsy, that dosnt happen to me anymore. i have to remind myself that it is night time and i have to force myself to go to bed and try to sleep

i feel jittery and have weird tremors since the injury. even when i do manage to black out in bed for a few hours i wake up and do not fee refreshed, my muscles are painful and stiff muscles and i feel as if i did not sleep. and i dont have much energy in the day and have trouble concentrating because i cant sleep

having insomnia like this is very weird for me it is not me, because i am someone who was born as a heavy sleeper, i slept like a log, like a cat basically, i could sleep up to 12 hours on weekends. and i never used to be able to function with less than 6 hours of sleep

now in the last year i take whatever form of "sleep" i can get. i dont even sleep anymore i call it blacking out., i just black out but i feel like im not actually sleeping

i took a seep study and it showed i had reduced rem sleep.some issue with the sleep pattern

i feel as if my mind has to work harder to sleep, i have to exert my mind to physically sleep, so it is like i have more energy on days that i dont sleep at all
i have not had one night of normal well rested sleep since before the injury last yr when the tremor started. like my mind has to adapt to the injury and get some form of sleep

the sleep center i went to dosnt understand me, i have been getting injureis and not sleeping at all for 2-3 weeks or more in a row after

so they think i have bipolar disorder because they dont know why im not sleeping, i know i dont have bipolar disorder

i dont even have the symptoms of bipolar, i just lie down and cant sleep and dont feel refreshed

i dont feel like myself physically

so now they want me to go to see a psychiatrist to rule out bipolar even tho i knwo i dont have bipolar. they said i cant go back to them unless i rule that out

maybe i should find a different sleep center who would understand me better

but i dont even want to explain to them how ive been getting the injuries in the last year. those people continue to hurt me and stalk me, contact me

i tried going to police but police do not take me seriousely because i have bad social skills and talk low

but im in danger and keep getting injured and these injuries cause me insomnia that is severe

i know im not crazy but am being harmed by bad people who said they want to harm me. i dont know how to be ok and i think my life is in danger if the people keep harming me. i dont know if causing me severe insomnia is the worst thing they will do to me

even tho for me insomnia is really bad. it is not me and really strange

i tried tea and other herbal things, melatonin, over the counter sleep medicine

my sleep is not normal and got worse

i know theres people who are naturally born as bad sleepers or they can get by with 5 hours of sleep fine but im not wired that way im not one of those people, im someone who has always needed more sleep than other people since i was a little kid, i would always oversleep and miss the bus for school. i purposely took later afternoon classes so i could sleep late in the day in college.

but since the insomnia started i am lucky if i get 3 hours of "Sleep" blacking out that resembles sleep.


my situation is more rare,but i have read people have been through similar things