Insomnia Support Group
Insomnia is a symptom, rather than a disease, and is characterized by inadequate quantity or quality of sleep. People with insomnia complain of difficulty falling or staying asleep, which results in significant impairment of daytime functioning. Insomnia is categorized as transient (shorter than one week), short-term (one to three weeks) or chronic (longer than three...
Hi. This is my first time here. I have been having sleeping problems for about 2 years now. It started when my anxiety increased because of a lot of things that were going on in my life at that moment. At the beggining it was super stressful but having a CBT therapist helped me a lot. My insomnia never went away but felt more manageable. Now im on psychoanalysis because my first therapist kept cancelling on me and I couln't deal with that. With psychoanalysis it's a very slow improvement and these days my insomnia has been horrible, i havent sleot well in a week and I feel like my life is not mine. Im constantly thinking about sleep and fearing not being able to do it. I just had a meltdown and my partner was very frustrated with me (like "please calm down and try to sleep, breathe or something"), he is amazing and very supportive most of the time but he doesnt have to deal with this, its too much. I feel super guilty because I feel like a very problematic person and i really really just want to die. I wont commit suicide or anything but i really would love it if i just dropped dead or if something happened to me. I am tired of being awake. I see my life, my day life, and it's almost normal, I think about my insomnia and it's like everything is tainted. Like i dont deserve to be called normal because of it.
Im actually just venting, in hopes of maybe finding some support because I feel absolutely alone in this. I'm open to hearing succes stories and may be tips. I really dont want meds but maybe other stuff. Im in mexico so things work differently here and some treatments are out of reach for me (english is my second language so thats why you may find some, or a lot of, mistakes, sorry for that).
Im truly sorry for all of you guys going trough similar situations.
First, I'd suggest continuing with your analyst. Be sure to describe your thoughts of dying being caused by sleep issues. Ask that person if s/he uses CBT methods.
I would highly recommend continuing your CBT program, whatever it was. Those methods need to be used, and really every day, to work. But rest assured if you make that effort it will pay off enormously for you with better sleep now, and for the rest of your life. Without drugs.
I speak from experience on that. I learned CBT sleep training methods over a decade ago and still use them every day. It really becomes a lifestyle that supports good health and good sleep. If you are the self help type you'll find lots of good info about CBT sleep training methods online.
Whatever your program, be confident you can make this better.
I think it's important that you talk to a professional about your feelings of wanting to drop dead. Even if you're not planning to kill yourself, that's suicidal thinking and if it's not taken care of soon it can snowball into something ugly. Trust me, I know from experience.
Just know that you aren't alone. We're here for you and even though I don't know you, I care about what happens to you. If you're ever in a crisis, text HOME to 741 741. They're a crisis text line that's helped me a great deal. Also, if you're into music I highly recommend Twenty one Pilots album Vessel. The lyrics talk a lot about insomnia and being afraid at night.
Keep yourself safe <3
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