I'm just about as low as I've ever been. From sleeping like crap to having no energy to overall just mentally not being there, I haven't been this bad in a long time. It really is quite interesting to me to look at me on paper(like resume wise, grade wise, etc.) and then to think of what the real me is like. Some people are better in real life than on paper but I think I'm the opposite. I just totally don't function in real life what so ever because I'm so out of it from the lack of quality sleep. Without having candy every second, a slurpee, etc. I literally am a complete retard some days. But the saying money can't buy you happiness applies to me. In this case I'm substituting money with success in analogy but it still has the same connotation. If I were to seem my grades, resume, and stuff on paper I would think that I was happy based on my success.

That is not the case however. Instead all I think about is how bad I slept, how tired I am, etc. Anyway, I feel like I'm in the most bizarre situation I've ever heard of. I've heard of people not being able to graduate, get the job, etc. because of sleep problems or other disabilities but my situation is different. I guarantee I'll get my degree and my GPA will be good and all that despite my sleep problems but won't be excited about it. Once I get a degree I'll enter the job force and have trouble. Everyone will be like "what?" this is the same guy in person as on paper? But yeah, overall I'm probably at one of the lowest points of my life. I don't really know what to do about it either because I'm so busy that I really don't have much time to put effort into it.