I'm 2 years post dday and still have 'crazy' days. Be tough and don't give up. It will get better :)

I don't know if I can ever let go of the hurt- and start trusting him. I think it is hard for anyone but it is especially hard if your CS does not work with you in the way you need them to. I see him trying and appreciate him doing so. But, I need him to talk to me, not pretend this did not happen- he does not do that. So, I hope it gets easier for you- but it has been a long time for me and I still feel angry, betrayed, misunderstood, and am trying to figure out what I need to do about it. Good luck......

It is difficult and my H doesn't like talking about the A either. But, in his defense, he has been on-board in every possible way with our rebuilding. I couldn't ask for anything more from him. I still get frustrated and scared and sometimes he gets frustrated and scared that i'm STILL frustrated and scared. But I think that this is all part of rebuilding the trust. I believe that you have to go through tough time to get to the good times. I wish you luck as well.

Have you spoken to your doctor? You could be suffering from depression. Under the circumstances, it wouldnt be unusual to need a little assistance to get yourself back in balance. I have had the hardest time getting motivated and staying on task . I already know I suffer from depression, so I am not resistant to understanding how it can affect you. Many people dont want to believe that it could be something that is so simple to fix. If you are eating properly ansd getting enough rest, you might want to consider making an appointment, even if it is just to talk and get an opinion.

The first few months I was completely unable to function. Literally. But, since I was going to be a single parent, I had no choice but to try. I gave myself a year and I think we are finally done finding mistakes I made in the beginning. I did have to go to the doctor recently and get medication. I fought it for a long time. But, like my psych. said, I wouldn't stop treating my diabetes, so it's silly not to treat a chemical imbalance in the brain.

Hang in there and know when to get help when you need it.

I'm not as far along in the healing process as you are, but I understand what you're saying about loss of focus. I've been having alot of trouble focusing. I haven't been able to enjoy many of the things that I used to because I just can't stay focused for any amount of time. I'm hoping to be over this soon.

I am 6 weeks since D day and the first 2 weeks i was basically absent from work. I am SO grateful my supervisor discreetly told my boss in edits that my life had basically turned upside down. He was wonderful.
When i did come to work, i looked shit. Had red blotches of excema all around my neck and hairline. When i was border line tears my boss said "go, you can't be here".
I'm a team leader to 10 staff. I simply couldn't help them OR myself.
I slowly came back, would do 5hrs, 6hrs, 4 hrs, using some flexi time we thankfully have.
Last Thursday i lasted 3 hrs. Rollercoaster.
I also lost my medical certificate, i can't concentrate i'm a complete bubble brain some days. Had to arrange another one..More work.

I have found doing a big walk after work, down to the Bay near my home is helping. Clears my head a bit.

I also will continue seeing a counsellor every Friday arvo for 6 weeks (another referral i lost the other week *sigh*).

We have So much going on in our minds, plus the anxiety and lack of sleep we can only do our best xo

p.s i recommend acupuncture also. i went this way instead of meds.

I am 7 months post d-day....I had a discussion with my doctor regarding this very same topic. She said that a prolonged reduction in calories can cause lack of attention. I have been trying to be more aware of this and have noticed that if I am having a bad day as far as eating goes, the brain seems to be on vacation too. Just something to think about. I hope it helps you too.

I am 11 months past dday and i still have days where I barely fuction. They are getting more infrequent Thanks God, but they still come.

The same place my whole world went-with him!

I too have the same issues... of course, addiction to this site isn't helping.... :O)

Seriously, I can't sleep at night, concentrate at work, or stay on task at home... I feel like that gerbil on the wheel... Doesn't matter how fast I run, I'm not going anywhere... or, in my case, making any progress...

I'll walk into a room and completely forget why I'm there, driving down the road, I forget where I'm going or how to get where I'm going... Sleep is hard to find and thoughts of how much better death would be hit consistently. My new mantra is "I hate my life". And, I really mean it. Honestly, who WOULD want to be me right now...? No one, that's who...