I can't control my emotions. I get so mad at my stbx that I really picture myself killing him. So very mad that I just have to scream. Then like just now when even though I am pushing for him to find a place to live and finally get out, he tells me that he might have found a place, my heart stopped. I am going crazy I don't know what to do with this all. I want to stay mad and usually at night I am, but the morning I wake up so sad. I feel like I am losing my mind. I want him to care more I guess that he is leaving I want him to be sad and upset. I am the one that told him I couldn't do this anymore. I just want him to hurt like I am. Well I just needed to get this out thanks.
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