Infidelity Support Group

Any relationship in which one partner engages willfully in sexual relations with another outside of the partnership is considered to have experienced infidelity. This breach of trust is often traumatizing for the faithful partner as well as the relationship, and support is often needed to heal emotionally and to decide whether or not the relationship should continue after...

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Just need to numb the pain..

startinanew
startinanew
I am going to stop on the way home and pick up some sleeping pills. I think I just want to sleep the weekend away. I can't look at him right now. I can't deal with it all. I want to crawl under a rock and die. I need to numb the pain..I need an escape from this hell I am living. Even though in my gut I knew it all along it is so different when D-day hits you in the face and you have no choice but to face reality.

I guess I am just not good enough for anybody to love. I never ask for much. I try to be the best partner I can be. There isn't anything I wouldn't do for the man I love. My first husband was abusive and I escaped that but now here I am living in hell once again. I thought I had meant my soul mate but I wasn't enough for him either, he had to go running back to her..the lying and cheating is more then I can bare right now. I can't listen to anymore lies and excuses. I just can't do this anymore.

I just read a good quote...

"It has been said, 'Time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone." Rose Kennedy
deleted_user
deleted_user
Go through your period of grieving. You need to feel what you need to feel. Work through those emotions. But if you need to get away from him, try some other things to - call a supportive friend or family member. Go out to lunch with someone you know you can trust. Talk to your network of friends and family and let them build you back up.

I can't tell you that you're ever going to find someone that won't do this kind of thing - I don't have that faith right now myself - but I do have faith that there's good in the world that's worth putting up with all of the bulls*** for. With everything you've gone through, you have to know that.

This isn't about you. Use it like a mantra. Remember... it's about him. It's about what he did. It was his choice, and it had nothing to do with you. He picked the most destructive way possible to deal with a problem. Unfortunately, you got caught in the aftermath. That doesn't mean you aren't worth loving or aren't enough for someone. It just means the world isn't perfect and maybe we have to find an imperfect we can live with.
DeliAnnem
DeliAnnem
I know you're going through Hell right now.

But if this happened to a friend of yours, would you say to her, "I guess you just weren't good enough to love"? Of course not! This is HIS defect; NOT YOURS!

Hugs.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Chin up sister, I know it's hard! I am about as tough as they come and cheating knocked my own self-worth for a loop. But, remember this, no one disrespects you without your permission. Loving someone does not give them the right to have that much control over your life.

THEY are not good enough for us, they never are that's what makes us the special souls that try and fix the "damaged." In time you may come to see that wound as a battle scar, look at it and realize yes it hurt but I SURVIVED. *Stay strong.*
- SandyLee
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hang in there....you ARE good enough! He is the one that isn't good enough for you. Focus that energy into becoming the best person you can be DESPITE your circumstances. I think I am starting to see this as the best form of revenge.
deleted_user
deleted_user
It is okay to sleep the weekend away BUT don't crawl under the rock.
Don't let any time you spent with a weasel define you. Don't let any slef image that you made from interaction with the weasel define you.
The only lies are the ones that he wants you to believe about yourself.
The wounds won't heal but they will close, they will subside, You (i'm talking to myself here but maybe it applies) have to choose between being a victim or being victimized.
Victimized = yes being wounded but the wounds do not define who you are
Victim = the wounds define who you are,

Startinanew, you are "just too good" for a weasel to love BUT you are just fine for a good person to love,
you are a good person so don't get fooled into beliving otherwise