It's been 6 months since i discovered my girlfriend cheated on me and betrayed me. It was a month long fling she had while I wasn't around. We were only starting out and technically not together but we promised we wouldn't be with anyone else until we had the chance to be in the same place and give it a try.
I was crushed and devastated. I'm sure you can all relate to that feeling. Anyway, I decided to give her a chance, and honestly she has made so much effort to make it ok. But i've been angry so many times. I feel annoyed most of the time. Everything still reminds me of him with her. She didn't tell me the whole truth at first so I gradually discovered more and more becasue I knew she was lying to make it easier for me to swallow. But knowing she was lying just kept making me angry. Now I know most of the truth and she had a small relationship with this guy. I understand she didn't tell me all, becasue i don't think I wold have given her a chance. I don't think I can take it anymore and I'm seriously thinking of leaving. She will be devastated, she regretted what she did so much and I can see she would change it in a second. Des[ite her betrayal and deceit, we went for it and have fallen in love. But now it is past the initial stage of new love, I feel the chance for long term love with her is impossible. I feel bad becasue she has put unbelievable effort to show me that im the one she wants and that she is truly sorry. But im just not the person that can deal with what she did. Im not so angry anymore, but my love is fading quickly. And I dont see how it will come back becasue of what she did. My love is fading anyway becasue of what she did. Before i would have wanted her to be hurt, but i feel bad now, becasue she will be devastated if i end it. I don't know what to do. There is a part of me that loves her. But what she did and how she continued to lie about it has created a wall for amy feelings for her. I don't know how to deal with this.