Vent away! That is what this site if for and why it is so great. We all understand very well your frustration. My XH has never admitted both affairs to me. He admitted one (started online) via a text message after we broke up. He has not admitted the second one, which started with his friend and our neighbor's wife BEFORE he left me. He went to spend the night with her (they had moved at this point and weren't next door) while her H was away and the evening his Father was buried. He didn't answer his phone and couldn't be reached for many hours. He says he was driving, but on innocent authority (young children) I know exactly where he was. He went to be comforted in the arms of another woman instead of his wife. He also went because she was so jealous and upset I was standing by him and supporting him during this terrible time for his family. I did everything without complaint but it was never enough.
He has not admitted any of this, but I know. I know a lot of details of their little affair.
It used to make me upset. I used to need closure, which would be the decent thing for him to do. But I don't need it anymore and besides how could I beleive anything he says. He is classic NPD and so is his OW. Good luck to them both on that one!
Just know you are not crazy. You have a right to be super angry. You have a right to vent anything you want. Don't let anyone make you feel bad about that.
Your X may never admit a thing. Your closure and peace of mind comes from knowing that although you were in the EXACT same situation as he was YOU DID NOT CHEAT OR TURN TO ANYBODY OUTSIDE YOUR RELATIONSHIP. You will always know that. He never will.

Like newwoman...I think this is termed as gaslighting -- when these cheaters try to make us look like we are crazy so we doubt ourselves too much to really act or trust ourselves. Your cheater is an ass.

Is there any way you can get him out so you don't have to live like this anymore? It's brutal, I know.

Vent away -- and you have every right to be mad as hell.

I am trying to get him out. Now he says he has an apartment that he will be moving into in April which is just a couple of weeks. Let me tell you that I told him he had to get out In December. He has had so many excuses. Whats so sad is that he doesn't even care or appear to care that he is doing this to me.. Well then again in his mind he is doing nothing wrong. Like I said before he wants me to think I am the crazy one. Who knows what is going on in his sick head maybe he has made himself think he is doing nothing wrong so he doesn't have to feel guilty.
But really thanks for the post. It helps to get the support and have others tell you that it is not you. Once he is out it wont be in my face. If he don't leave in April I will go nuts. I can't force him out, I was told since we are not divorced yet he can stay if he wants to.

I'll cross my fingers for April. Living with that is awful. His not caring whether this is hurting you or not...making you feel like you're crazy...he has got to go.

Keep venting. It helps...

Look beyond infidelity. This is called "The Crazy Making Husband".

Don't play ball with him!!!!