Infidelity Support Group
Any relationship in which one partner engages willfully in sexual relations with another outside of the partnership is considered to have experienced infidelity. This breach of trust is often traumatizing for the faithful partner as well as the relationship, and support is often needed to heal emotionally and to decide whether or not the relationship should continue after...
It has been since months since the A. Today 6months ago I waited at home like a good wife for my guy to get home. I thought must suck to have a flat and have to sleep in the car at your friends house. I made sure dinner was ready and the house was clean. Yes our relationship was on the rocks but I was taking each day at a time. And to me it was just another ok day. BOY WAS I WRONG!! He had even came home and we made love.
Since then things have been good more than bad but there are days like today that are REALLY BAD.
We needed to go shopping for the house. I asked are we all gonna go or do you and the kids want to stay home? He said he wanted to come with. Well turns out he was in a bad mood. We get to the first store and I have to pee.(I have bladder problems so when I need to go I NEED to go). So I was trying to hurry and get the kids out of the car. Kids were dorking of course. So I was trying to hurry things along. Next thing I know he is yelling at me, "GO THE FUCK ON THEN!" and so other stuff I now can't remember. But it went out of control from there. On the way home he grabbed me and held me. So I thought ok things were gonna chill out. WRONG. Because I had another flash back and it made me cry(which I took into the bedroom). He comes in and asked me whats wrong. I tell him I realized it had be 6months and it hit me. So I needed a moment. He again went off. And started saying, "oh poor Sarah. Has it so bad and is way worse off than everyone else. Poor her. I'm not gonna kiss your a$$." and some other things. Which I than got up said "I don't have to take this abuse and went back into the living room. He is now passed out on the bed.
When he is awesome HE IS FREAKIN' AWESOME but when he's an a$$ it can get bad. I love him of course and know that if you love someone you take the bad with the good but I have been made to feel unwanted my whole life. When I met him I told him I just wanted to be truly loved and to never again feel like I do right now.
Now I am not innocent in all of this I too have said my hurtful things and have done things in my past that I am not proud of(kissed his bro after we first got together). I just wish I knew how to get the help we need to heal. And be a happy family.
Since then things have been good more than bad but there are days like today that are REALLY BAD.
We needed to go shopping for the house. I asked are we all gonna go or do you and the kids want to stay home? He said he wanted to come with. Well turns out he was in a bad mood. We get to the first store and I have to pee.(I have bladder problems so when I need to go I NEED to go). So I was trying to hurry and get the kids out of the car. Kids were dorking of course. So I was trying to hurry things along. Next thing I know he is yelling at me, "GO THE FUCK ON THEN!" and so other stuff I now can't remember. But it went out of control from there. On the way home he grabbed me and held me. So I thought ok things were gonna chill out. WRONG. Because I had another flash back and it made me cry(which I took into the bedroom). He comes in and asked me whats wrong. I tell him I realized it had be 6months and it hit me. So I needed a moment. He again went off. And started saying, "oh poor Sarah. Has it so bad and is way worse off than everyone else. Poor her. I'm not gonna kiss your a$$." and some other things. Which I than got up said "I don't have to take this abuse and went back into the living room. He is now passed out on the bed.
When he is awesome HE IS FREAKIN' AWESOME but when he's an a$$ it can get bad. I love him of course and know that if you love someone you take the bad with the good but I have been made to feel unwanted my whole life. When I met him I told him I just wanted to be truly loved and to never again feel like I do right now.
Now I am not innocent in all of this I too have said my hurtful things and have done things in my past that I am not proud of(kissed his bro after we first got together). I just wish I knew how to get the help we need to heal. And be a happy family.
Shed tears of lonesome despair in the form of rain
I've devoted my life to rid you of your pain
For feelings of acceptance which reveal themselves feigned
Do not mind that, scream the voice in my brain
But if I stop giving, only I remain
Though I know not of misery
For I lack the company it needs to be entertained
But misery would be a nice change
This solitude drives me insane
one thing i have learned is there is no good that comes out of being treated bad even if it is every so often.
I give you kuddos for wanting to stick it out and work on things. Even tons of extra kuddos for admitting that you have your faults into it as well.
I would suggest that you seek some counseling. If you have medical insurance more than likely you will have little to no co pay. if you dont, and if you belong to a church, most churches will offer services to help in that area.