I am a father of two beautiful kids. About a year ago, found out my wife had chemistry with another man thru her email, who is the father of my son's buddy at school. I was mad and upset (didn't throw any temper though), my wife asked and eventually we talked and she admitted they had chemistry for each other. She was remorseful about it and we were very nice to each other, we gave each other more intimacies...I bought her flowers, chocolates....I though this was over.

Then for about one month, I realised she was still secretly initating contacts with him, even she deleted her emails with him, I could still retrieved them and know that they are getting closer and closer emotionally. This lasted about two months, I always hoped, the relationship will go away but it's not. In JUly, I again was mad and this time she confronted me...saying they were just friends, and got upset at me. If it's just friend, why can't she let me read their emails, at that time, their emails alrady show "special feelings" for each other.

I tried to forgive, set aside my feekings and get by...took the family on vacations, twice, but meanwhile she changed her email password. Again, I know they must be developing something, other wise she wouldn't change her email passwords. Later on, I actually found out she is using gmail instead of her regular hotmail. I tried to tell myself to trust her...maybe she is not using these emails to communicate with that guy. During this time, I wasn't mad at all, took the family for several more outings.

Finally in october, I saw an email she forgot to delete from ther other man with explicit wordings,and she actually declared "I love you" to that guy...I was so disappointed. We talked about it again, I made it clear I cannot tolerate this any longer. She said she would try?? I bugged her phone, and heard she and the cheating guy were crying painfull assuming they know they must stop their infidelity for the sake of the kids of both families. I also heard the way my wife talked to him was just like a lover went on a first date...I was so heart-breaking, angry, looking at the picture my beautiful daughter drew of my whole family, I cried the first time since my dad passed away.

Up to this point, they are still secretly seeing each other , while each of their spouses have to work to support the families, they are still commnicate with each other on a daily basis (I don't know what's the contents unless she forgot to delete).

I feel the trust is totally broken, she makes it seems like she is doing me a flavour by trying not to see this guy!!!!! I really want a divorce, but looking in the eyes of my kids, I don;t know!!!!!!

Help please!!