I am in no position to pass comment but I would like to leave you with some hope.... while I respect highly the choice women make to choose to not have children (or try unsuccessfuly) I believe it's an amazing gift that has been given to us specifically as women to bare, nurture, grow and home a child within the womb. Time is a funny thing. It makes us look at things in a different way & while I don't know you at all, i believe it starts with a desiré which I do believe you have. I have caught myself on numerous occasions wondering why I hadn't been able to conceive sooner in a more natural way if I was meant to have children and have come to this conclusion. The method, although important, is not as important as the outcome. Adoption, surrogacy, IVF, UIU doesn't make us any less of a mother. We might just have a little more complicated journey to get to our destination. Not having a baby is something you either always regret or always remember and it's up to you to make that call as far as what your heart desires. I think natural instinct will take its course..Having a little bit of nervousness means that there's room for some excitement too! Baby dust to you!

Thank you mommy_in_training for your kind words.

I have always thought that it's the parents who worry if they are good enough who are/will be the best parents. I worry constantly if I'm meant to be a mother, how will I parent? Will I be bad at it? Will my kids turn out ok? Having those feelings means you care enough to do it right. You care about your impact and do the best by your family.

Hi there, Nervous! I don't know about words of wisdom, but I thought I might just let you know you are definitely not alone with these feelings you are having. I truly believe that once that little one is placed in your arms though, regardless of the books you have or haven't read, etc. you will know exactly what to do, or you will figure it out as you go. After all, isn't that pretty much what all of us do? Also, wanted to send you virtual hugs about having just recently lost your mom. I lost mine in April of 2016 (in fact, the year anniversary of her death just passed not too long ago) and I know how heartbreaking it is to not have the ability to just give her a call and get her much-needed advice. My mom knew my hubby and I were trying to conceive and going through the fertility process though, so I feel thankful that she knew it was likely that we would eventually have the joy of pregnancy, which we now do! (: I am not quite 11.5 weeks now, and due in November. Although I am sad that my mom isn't here to share it with me, as I selfishly miss the heck out of her, I know she would be absolutely thrilled that we are expecting, as would yours when your time comes! All I can say is try to breathe, and take it one day at a time. Time flies by anyway, so try not to get too ahead of yourself with worry before it is necessary, or you will give yourself an ulcer. Best of luck, and baby dust to you in your journey!!