I am becoming so depressed. I've posted before about everyone around me being pregnant or having a baby already. It is so hard to deal with. I'm in counseling and now I'm even comtemplating a group counseling as well. I don't want to be around any of these people. I don't like seeing them it is so upsetting to me. My brother's (who is 4 years younger than me) girlfriend is pregnant and I have not seen them since the announcement. I was supposed to go to dinner with them tonight but I canceled. I can't deal with their excitement while I am dying inside. I also dread any questions they might ask about us having children. I only have my dad and brother, my mother passed away 5 years ago, and I have not told my brother or dad about our unexplained infertility because I feel they will not understand or even try to be understanding. I've contemplated telling them so they might be sensitive but have told my husbands family (3 sisters and MIL) and that has turned into a very hurtful situation. No one in his family is sympathetic to what I am going through...they think its nothing. So I feel I need to keep my "dirty little secret" close to my breaking heart.
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