Infertility Support Group

In vitro fertilization is one of the most common and utilized ways of treating conception problems. This support group is dedicated to those beginning their journey with IVF and needing support. Join the community and share your experiences, advice, and story with people going through similar challenges starting a family.

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llp1187 01/23/2015

I am 27, and my husband and I have been TTC for 14 months. We recently found out that he has sperm abnormalities. At this point he is taking supplements and we are still trying the old fashioned way. We may consider IUI or IVF in the future...

First off, I feel bad that I am complaining after only 14 months, when I know there are so many others out there that have been trying for years. To those of you out there, no matter how long - I am sorry you have to go through this.

I'm glad I found this site because otherwise I feel alone. All of my friends either have kids, or are nowhere near wanting to have kids. I love my husband to death, but he gets defensive when I want to discuss it and gets so heartbroken when I cry about it.

I'm tired of having no one to talk to about exactly what I am feeling. I am tired of people telling me to "stop trying and it will happen." How do you stop trying for something you have wanted your whole life? I am tired of people I barely know (and loved ones) asking me when my husband and I are going to start a family. I'm tired of seeing young teenage girls getting knocked up. I'm tired of seeing daily on facebook that someone else is pregnant! Will it ever be my turn? I'm scared that I can't be happy with my life with out a child(ren). What am I going to do with my life if we can't have kids?

I know that my questions cannot be answered - I just really needed to put it out there. Thanks for "listening".

Halterbroke 01/24/2015

I "hear" you and I'm sorry you're going through this. One of the most frustrating things to hear is "relax, and you'll get pregnant". Like that ever worked for anyone. (((hugs)))

jamiev0721 01/24/2015

It might be something like a Varicole Vein on his scotumn, schedule a consultation with urologist, thats what happened to my husband and its an easy fix. Also you might want to ask for HSG for you, in my case thats what helped us conceive after over a year of trying.

mysweetbaby1 01/25/2015

All those who get pregnant without problem are the ones who say just stop trying and it will happen.
First of all women like us who have very strong desire to have children just can't stop thinking about it. I have tried many times to just stop thinking about having a baby but i can't. I do tell many times that i have stopped thinking about it and that i have decided to live child free, only with the memory of my stillborn baby but i know deep inside my heart i am waiting to get pregnant again.
I go through the cycles of hopes and disappointment every month. I say that i will take a break but every time i think this might be the month.

llp1187 01/29/2015

Thanks for the support!

NotGivingUpHope 01/30/2015

I completely understand and I'm sorry you are going through this. My husband does not make sperm at all, so we are considering our other options (donor sperm or adoption). Your entire post sounds like what goes through my head on a daily basis. I feel guilty even bringing it up with my husband because it usually leads to me crying and him getting defensive and angry.

I've been considering deleting my Facebook because it just causes me too much pain and heartache. I got so upset last week when I found out an acquaintance who just got married last summer is pregnant with twins. I can't even pretend to be excited for friends anymore when they announce their pregnancies. My emotions usually go from anger to jealousy to sadness. I try not to wallow in self pity, but sometimes I feel like there is no alternative because I just feel so alone (but DS helps with that!).

The GREAT news is that there are several options ahead of you although it may not feel like it now. The most difficult thing is adjusting your mindset to realize that it is probably going to take more effort (and money) for you to get pregnant than you ever anticipated. I still have to remind myself that every day.

Feel free to send me messages as you go along, we are in quite similar situations and it would be nice to have someone to talk to! :)

KathleenS9713 01/30/2015

I'm so sorry to hear about your struggles and I understand completely what you are gong through. I love my friends, but when I was trying to get pregnant they would say the same things, "just don't think about it and it will happen" or "just stop trying", or my favorite, "don't think about it". I don't know, ever since I was young I wanted to be a wife and mother so that was out of the questions. My husband has low mobility, abnormalities, and low count. I myself have scare tissue around my fallopian tubes, and had one removed back in October because of blockage...we are currently doing IVF and I want you to know you have options and there are ways...wishing you the best of luck and piece of mind. My husband made some lifestyle changes and took some supplements and it has been improving! Keep your head up, always here to talk.

LMWT 01/31/2015

Welcome to the group! I have been absent for awhile but always find myself coming back because the women here are amazing!

I am sorry for your struggles but I know you will find the support you need here.

debj77 02/09/2015

OMG ! I cant believe its taken me so long to find such an amazing support group ...I just wish you were all in my lounge room with me lol! Big hugs and love to all you amazing people who give so much understanding to people you don't know. I have been reading all these posts and am nodding my head in agreement the whole time. I have been feeling so alone and depressed over my IF issues, I'm the last one of every woman I know (not even joking) to have kids and it seems its still along way off. I'm so tired of being moody, emotional, jealous but I just cant pick myself up. I feel so much relief just reading all your comments. Thank you every single one of you that shares your pain and love. back at you all xx.

Apple2014 02/09/2015

Welcome LLP187 ~ First off, I'm sorry that you are going through all this. It isn't fun and what you are feeling is completely normal. I wanted to share that I tried for 8 years to get pregnant...I have PCOS and my husband has low sperm and abnormal. After really buckleing down and researching out a lot of dr.s we found one we really had faith in. She ran tons and tons of tests. We both switched our diets a little (husband stop drinking pop and other sugary things he LOVES) We did our 2nd IUI with her and it took! I was in the same boat you are in as far as feeling like everyone was asking when we would have kids, after 8 years of no kids I couldn't hide it anymore so when they asked "when are you going to have kids" I would say "when God decides to give them to us" it was a nice but a clear way of telling them that we are trying and have no control. I hated everyone that was pregnant and especially the 16 year olds that had no way to take care of a baby. Adoption was what my husband wanted around our 4th year of marriage, I told him until someone tells me I can't have children I will keep trying. I wish you the best and never give up hope. Keep positive and keep an open heart. Your husband is probably just as heart broken and maybe feels like it is his fault....take care and best wishes!!! :) *HUGS*

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