I completely understand what you are saying. I hope we will be mothers soon, I hope now even just one baby although I would like to have more before I got married. Sometimes we can't help but question. Anyway, good luck on your journey to motherhood.

It is hard to watch people around have children when we don't, especially when the children are not taken care of (which I'm sure your husband sees a lot in law enforcement. I hope you get your baby soon because it's a tough road to be on.

Girl I so know wht you mean. I work in a Rehab Center, it makes me so mad to see pregnant girls 4 months pregnant using cocaine, meth, and god knows what else, plus they are not taking prenatal vitamins nor seen a doctor. i usually start crying in my office when i find out, most of my co-workers try to keep it from me.

I work part time on a nursing unit at a childrens hospital, and daily we see kids who are abused and abandoned and wards of the state. It is so sad to think that there are so many who have been given the gift we all would love to have, and don't appreciate it!

I am feeling the same way tonight. We have been in treatment over a year as well. I even said in an office appt I would do drus if that will increase my chances. If you find out how to survive this emotional rollercoaster with some sanity PLEASE share. Best of luck.

After almost a year of TTC on our own I went to my Dr. and she said to "relax, even drug addicts can have babies." Now 2 years later I still think of that comment and wonder why they can and I can't? It's the most frustrating thing I've ever been through!

Personaly after all these years (8.5 ttc), I now look at it this way...other people that do all kinds of things that are harmful or potentially harmful and still have children easily, or those who maybe shouldn't have chilren easily do...but that has nothing to do with me and if I will have children or not. There is no connection. Life just is like that.

Why do some people win the lottery? Why do some people get cancer? Why do some people lose loved ones? Why? Why can drive you crazy. I don't think there is a why anymore. imo it just is what it is.

The one thing that you do that DOES matter, imho, is how you see things.

And the other thing that you can do, is do the best you can, and make your own choices in terms of treatment options, caring for your relationship during stressful times, etc...

Just how I see things, anyway.

I've had the same thought before, then I think it doesn't matter. Unfortunately it is what it is. And then I see how long others have been struggling and I feel that I can't let myself feel like this that early on. I used to think I just get off the pill and then get pregnant. Big surprise! Just try and focus on getting tested or whatever it is that keeps you from being pregnant and not to dwell so much on the why.

I understand how you feel. I was student teaching this spring for a 10th grade classroom. I saw more kids pregnant. It was so frustrating. I kept thinking why are they getting pregnant so easily when I am struggling. In the same day, I found out one of my 15 year olds was pregnant and that the 150mg of Clomid I was on had absolutely no effect. You are not alone and I feel your pain and frustration.