Infertility Support Group

In vitro fertilization is one of the most common and utilized ways of treating conception problems. This support group is dedicated to those beginning their journey with IVF and needing support. Join the community and share your experiences, advice, and story with people going through similar challenges starting a family.

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rumnougat 03/15/2017

I just joined today and already, reading other posts here, I feel like this is a place where I might be able to make friends who understand what I'm going through. So far I've only confided in my partner, my dad and my brother. They're all sympathetic and supportive, but they don't really get it. Most of my female friends are pregnant or have kids. I just feel so alone... and disappointed, and angry, and hopeless... and I haven't even started Clomid yet.

I'm not quite ready yet to just adopt three or four dogs and start referring to them as my children. But I also struggle with optimism or feeling hopeful. A weird, superstitious part of me thinks that I can't get pregnant because I'm bitter and jealous of my friends who have kids or are pregnant. I've tried to be happy for them but it's so, so hard.

I try to look on the bright side - not pregnant this month? I can have all the wine and soft cheese I want! It doesn't always work.

loverin1228 03/15/2017

Oh rumnougat, I feel you! The whole first year we were trying I worried that something I did before we were married might have caused us to not be getting pregnant. Turns out the issue isn't even with me but our minds will do anything to try and explain why we are in pain and give us some semblance of control.

Hang in there! You are so not alone in this struggle and it's OK to struggle. It's ok to be mad and frustrated and bitter and jealous. This isn't an easy situation and there's nothing wrong with having strong emotions about it as long as we are trying not to let them overwhelm us (though they will sometimes inevitably).

Keep doing what you're doing and try to look on the bright side of things when it gets rough. We planned a trip to keep ourselves mentally looking forward instead of dwelling in the unknown and each month I do the SAME THING - get my period? Cry for awhile and then drink a long island!

Sorry you are in this place but know you are surrounded by people who are in it with you on this forum.

ATC_Alli 03/15/2017

I booked a vaca for the next time Aunt Flo will most likely pay a visit, at least then I can wash away my tears with a drink on the beach! You are in the right place. I spent hours my first day here reading through posts and comments and felt sad and empowered at the same time. So many amazing and strong ladies in one place has really really helped me. I never thought strangers would be the ones to help me through this but I'm so happy I reached out to this site. Keep your head up and best wishes

SML1018 03/16/2017

Hi! I also struggle with feeling alone, angry, hopeless and then in the next breath I feel hopeful. Hopeful part doesnt stick around very long most days but its still there. We have a dog and a cat and for a while we talked about getting another dog... our excuse was to have a playmate for our dog now, but in truth, it was mostly to fill that void.
I love the way you think, all the wine and soft cheese you want! its true, i'm sure that doesnt work all the time but its a good way to think about it.

rumnougat 03/18/2017

I have a massage scheduled for the weekend after my next period is due, so I'll have something to look forward to.

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