Hi!

I am 29 years old (3 months to 30). My husband and I have been TTC for 3 years in April. 7 failed IUI's and just completed IVF, I have a pregnancy test Wednesday (everyone cross your fingers!). So we are in very similar spots. I take comfort in thinking I am the one in a rush and my life is exactly where it should be. Never feel like less of a beautiful woman! Infertility takes so much from us and puts such a strain on our relationships but we just have to try and remember that we are exactly where we are intended to be. I believe something will work out for you and it will make you realize why you had to wait or why it didn't go exactly your way. Maybe you are meant to have twins and it must be achieved through fertility treatments! Try not to be in a rush and live in the now. There is nothing else we can do but keep pushing forward and trying everything we can to get a miracle baby! I hope you find a way to be happy and feel beautiful, even if its just by knowing you are not alone <3

I am so sorry you are going through this. It really is a roller coaster of emotions. You are a beautiful, smart person and you will feel better soon. When I was struggling with my fertility, all the doctors told me to relax, which is very hard to do!!!! Please know that you are not alone and I know how you are feeling. I'm not sure an instagram account would really help you feel better, just like you said. Thanks for commenting and sharing your story with us! We are here for you!

I'm sorry you faced infertility. I found myself having very ugly feelings towards women who got pregnant easily. I couldn't bear to be near pregnant women in the checkout line at Target with all her baby purchases. I would get short of breath and need to change lines. Mostly just turn around and say "fuck it, I'll just go buy more wine.". I am in a dark, dark, sad, place. I let it affect my marriage, my friendships, my career, you name it.

I hear you. It can be so hard to explain, and/or understand, the emotional toll of infertility. When I was trying to conceive, every time I got my period I would go through a day or two of severe depression. Couldn't stop crying, couldn't talk to anyone, was difficult to leave bed. And I feel like that all of the other times, too, just slightly less so. I cried at my last OB/GYN appointment--the memories of sitting in that waiting room while I miscarried were so painful, and everywhere around me were pregnant women or new mothers.

I'm so sorry that you are going through this, and that it is hurting you so much. There's no surefire way to feel better. Being on this forum, I think, is a good place to find support. It has also helped me to read articles about infertility/IVF. Like, I came across one article that talked about the discovery that many women who have infertility get PTSD. I read that mentally, it is akin to a diagnosis of cancer. You might not be facing your death, but you are having to face, and fear, the death of the life you always wanted. I know all that sounds glum, but it was helpful for me to know. I wished that my friends and family read the same articles, so they knew what I was going through and had more sympathy.

I hope you are doing ok. You've come to the right place to share your feelings, no matter what they are.