hey all, 

This is my first post on a support group, although the I have been reading them for a while. I'm 24 and my husband, who is 26, have been ttc for a year now. When I originally went off the pill, I immediately stopped getting my period- so I went to the doctor and practically forced her to take a blood test. It turned out that my testosterone levels were high, which eventually led to a PCOS diagnosis. They immediately put me on clomid and after three rounds with no results, I was sent to a fertility specialist. I responded well to the clomid and was told that there had to be another issue. My husband was tested and was deemed perfectly okay, and then I received an HSG scan- to find out that my left tube is blocked. We just did a second try of IUI this morning after seeing two mature follicles on the right side. It is so hard every month to feel as though the month was wasted and even harder to go through the motions of trying without any positive results. I recently found out my best friend is expecting and while I am so happy for her on one hand, it breaks my heart on the other. Navigating this journey has so far been one of the hardest things I've ever gone through in my entire life. My husband is incredibly supportive but I feel like he can't truly understand what we go through each month. The disappointment and devastation is so raw for a woman who is trying to conceive. I also feel a little resentful of my husband, as he knows we were supposed to try again tonight after the IUI but fell asleep due to exhaustion from a recent business trip. I know the anger is misplaced but I just feel like such a an emotional mess. Any advice and support is welcome as I feel so alone in this