HI there,

Once again I know how you feel and I struggle with this too...I know we're not supposed to question GOD but in this case it difficult not to.GOD knows our hearts and I ask him daily ''What am I doing or what have I done so wrong?'' Sometimes I cite the Serenity Prayer, which is helpful. GOD grant me the serenity to accept the things I can't change;courage to change the things and the wisdom to know the difference. I've also started reading this book, Conquering Infertility: Dr. Alice Domar's Mind/Body Guide to Enhancing Fertility and Coping with Infertility its interesting to know that my feelings are normal and my tears dont determine my strength.I wish we were ALL closer aso at times like this so I could give you a really BIGG HUGG:)

Im here if you ever to talk. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers. during this trying time.

It is a very tough journey. DH and I have been TTC for 5 years now and have been through 5 IUI"s and our next step is either adoption or IVF. WE too do not have the funds for either right now so have to wait until we are at a financial point in our lives where we can take the next step. I have struggled a lot with keeping my faith and did lose it for awhile. I just recently feel like I have been granted peace by God...which is what I prayed for after so many negatives. All I can say is hang in there and I have to believe that God does have a plan and only he knows what it is. Good luck and don't ever give up!

I know exactly how you feel...it makes my heart ache to know that so many others are hurting like this too! I have been a Christian all my life, but this whole process is such a "faith-tester". Last fall, I was pregnant with quads, which was such an amazing answer to so many prayers, and we had literally hundreds of people praying with us & for our babies. In April I delivered them early (23 weeks) and we lost them all. Every time I lost one, I would beg God "Please don't take another one..I can't lose another one" but within a week all 4 died. As we begin yet another round of fertility treatments, I am really struggling with my faith...I ask myself, "If God has my life all planned out, does it even do any good to pray???" Yet, I do know that He is an amazing God...so amazing that we will never fully understand Him. So I will keep praying for all of us..for peace, comfort, and/or BFP's!

What Amazing responses ladies, it brought me to tears. I feel like I cry at the drop of a hat lately. Your stories truly encourage me. Angelquads what amazing strength! This is what DS is truly about supporting each other.

It's amazing to me how common this is, to question what God is doing with us. I too have lately been wondering if God is actually preventing me from getting pregnant for a reason unknown to me. Then I get a little angry and think it's all a cruel joke. All I've ever wanted was to be a stay at home mom and raise a child and do PTA etc. I question whether my motives are not right and everything. But I try to remember we are created in His image. Our emotions come from Him, He feels what we feel too. That's what separates us from those who believe in evolution, evolution doesn't explain where our emotions come from. Anyway, I also believe the Bible when it says "when two or three gather in My name in prayer I am there also" or something to that effect. So lets all agree together in prayer that God will reveal His plan for each of us, either blessing our wombs with a baby or bringing to us the child He wants us to adopt if that is what He intends for us instead.

I'm agreeing in prayer with MaryKD...

Maybe we should all agree and say a prayer for each other. I totally agree!

Hello,

I understand what you are going thru with God. It is one of the hardest things to deal with while trying to stay aligned with what God wants. I am always praying that God will let me have a turn to a little baby. I get so angry with him and it is hard to follow him when it seems so wrong to have to go through the pain of infertility.

You are in my thoughts and prayers!!! I pray that God will bring you and your husband a wonderful little blessing!!!

You are not alone in your struggle. I'm a Christian that questions this fertility process although I believe that GOD is divine in everything he does and he does have a plan for all of us. Keep your faith close and the answers will come. Lets all pray for each other.

I so know what you mean. My DH and I had two m/c before we got pregnant with our beautiful daughter. Well, our daughter was born two months early and passed away when she was 14 weeks old. It was horrible. Now we have been trying to have another baby for almost one year. Two weeks shy actually. We found out we were pregnant on May 30th, one month after giving up with the RE. So it was natural. Then we lost that pregnancy four days later. I ask all of the time what I did to deserve all of this......... I will pray for you.